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@derpytia hope you're feeling slightly better. We got this thing called habituation that might start to work its way out of this for us. Your brain is stronger than you imagine it is. It may seem like slow progress but it is progress nonetheless. Yes, there will be back steps and missteps where...

Same here @Harry ! I'm still young but these conditions of life and T make it unlikely that old age, when all manner is ailments are going to hit, is going mean an enjoyable retirement. You're right, life is harsh and it's full of suffering and what can be rightly called weltschmerz. All the...

At first I was checking every morning but very soon realised it's just another futile exercise which we all did wishing it wouldn't be there. So I quit doing it! It's better to either accept it's going to be there every morning for a verrry long time or find the cause for it and get that fixed...

The problem with T is without doubt its unpredictability. Sometimes it goes up for no reason. Go figure, you know? But that's where the problem is. It leads you a merry chase and you eventually get back to square one again. It's a vicious cycle which keeps you wading in stress and depression...

It's funny. I don't feel anger at how or why it happened any longer ...it's more like an indefinable anger that I now have to live in the electrical power substation that is my brain.

@sideways I've been going through something similar, and I know the combination is enough to want to make an exit. I live with a buzzing head, noises that keep changing, etc and a lot of physical pain after my accident. What can I say? I agree things do not look good... I understand...feeling...

Telis, you took the doctors advice in trust as I know many if not all of us would have. You wanted help. I would have done exactly the same as you. I feel for you, dude. You said being in close to quiet places brings some relief. I have the same experience. The acoustics of an enclosed space...

I wouldn't stop taking the AD if I were you. But use the benzos sparingly. Your brain is still adjusting to the new sound, and it will continue to do so. There's parts of your brain being activated you simply have no control over. The AD/benzo is taking the edges off the extreme shifts of your...

@ awbw8 said '...Each and every person here is incredibly strong just from going day-to-day with this ailment. Let's not draw boundaries; we all need support and empathy... I do hope you and Telis feel better, I am so sorry you are suffering so terribly.' This should be crystal clear to...

The rest of my life with T? That's quite a challenge. I know I can't change a thing by arguing it away or by altering my reaction when ear pain and every god damn tone, pitch and timbre keep changing like it is now (mine is from nerve damage). It turns to mind games if I do. I'm just trying to...

Bump. I liked reading your responses on this, guys. Hmm. A few things it's taught me... How wonderful it is to have had good hearing without T; I was ignorant. Poor hearing can mean not just loss of hearing range but a new spectrum of continuous, unimagined and frightening sounds. How novel...

Glad the temazepam is helping you. I've also been offered similiar benzos and others pills by a doctor when I first went to see about this living hell we've all got. What I've learnt is that it all seems to be placebo when it comes to T, like with a whole lot of other barmy treatments. These...

@valeri... Ditto. In the first weeks I thought I was going to lose it. Then I didn't. Later, I thought 'No. Insead, it's going to slowly make me doubt everything about what makes my life worthwhile.' And it did. It had got my attention. From then on I knew I had made a mistake. At that point...

I can't say everything you need now but I'm going to try. You're tired and deeply unhappy cos of the T, and that's enough to wear anyone down. I just recently got T and am sorry you're here too. When I read what you wrote it makes me anxious about how I might be doing six months from now, but...

It's far far harder to get through things with T, that's for sure. And when I have bad days it takes so much damn effort to hold my nerve against it. People without T can't understand how it makes life so heavy. If you're having a sucky day then it compounds this stuff you have to live with...