Has your ex husband now picked up a new woman who is healthy? I guess it's easier for him. Too bad he did that to you. Have you spoken with a therapist about it?
Dude, I'm suspicious he had another woman before that point but that's another story (randomly found an old paystub of his a few months ago, he told me he worked 60 hours a week but actually worked 40). I have spoken to a therapist about it but not in almost 2 years. I don't dwell nearly as much but there are occasional reminders.
You're an incredibly intelligent, knowledgable woman. He doesn't deserve you. Keep your head up, @FGG I know it must be hard, but you're going to be okay.
Relationships are.fickle things to begin with. And then we throw in habits and conditions which are sometimes out of our control and we pray the our partner can handle the truth. And then sometimes we have to beat a new path. I sincerely hope the path your on leads you to happiness. This may sound cheesy or generic but I mean it.
@Steph1710 , yeah it sounded like I miss him. I definitely don't but being *so* wrong about someone (fundamentally in character, not just the relationship) I genuinely truly loved at one point is what still hurts. I'm just an overall unlucky mess at this point in my life I guess.
I'm so sorry that your life (and not you!) became this messy. You're such a nice, incredibly smart person and your ex is a douche. Not just because he didn't stay, but the way he treated you and your illness is inexcusable.
Betrayal is never easier, whether it's cheating, not treating you how you deserve to be treated, lying etc. Hurts even more when the person doing it is the one who is supposed to be there to support/lift you up in the worst of times. I don't think people truly get over being betrayed — it cuts deep.