Yeah, but then I rejoice for the life I'm gonna get. Normal everyday-life is going to feel like heaven on earth to us once we're on the other side of this shit. That's the reward we get for putting up with these years.
And who knows, maybe someone like Dr. De Ridder is on to something. We may very well be one of the first lucky people to receive ACTUAL treatment. So don't give up on hope, @Hamsti .
I did that quite often in the first 2 years. I still do sometimes but less so then the first two years. It IS a huge grief and a loss to have silence replaced by tinnitus (and ear pain in my case) For me its no different then loosing a beloved person in your life (silence and pain-free ears was very dear to me)