I am just a human being and I have emotions, I do not deserve this eternal torture. The severity is just too much. I cannot help myself - no one can. My whole life - everything that I studied , worked hard for, my social life, my sleep, my emotional and physical well being are falling or felt apart already.
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Nobody deserves it @Freerunner . But what pain you feel today might not be the case tomorrow. Life is not falling apart - even though it may feel so today. Its okay and normal to feel this way when you feel "trapped", but don't let those thoughts take completely over your life. Thoughts can often be wrong... For better days! Take care
You're in a terrible place right now. I know because I was there too. The most difficult part of it is that you don't know how long it will last and that there is no pill or easy fix. Tinnitus will teach you humility, acceptant, it will give you inner strenght and forge you in the fires of hell. It's going to transform you. Trust me, it's the most transformative thing I've experienced and I've been though a lot.
Most likely it will get better. When? Impossible to say. This is not something that you can reason your way out of. It's not possible to think yourself back to no tinnitus. And looking back, I have to say that feeling those emotions to the fullest is healthy and helpful - holding them back is bad. It's ok to be scared and in despair, because we're just humans and tinnitus is overpowering and alien in nature.
You will be in this torment for a while. It's hard to say how long. But it's not the end of your life and it's also not the end of life quality. Don't take bad news by proxy here. Instead, try to instruct yourself on how to keep a rational and positive mindset. Asking the impossible here but also remember that intelligence can get in the way of emotions sometimes. So embrace both and be prepared for a ride.
Never lose sight of your goal. If you have goal of silence again, imagine it every day and be thankful for what you have. You have 2 arms, 2 legs, 2 eyes that work fine. Your body works well except for this dreadful noise in your head. Then its only 1 thing we gotto fix. I have so many friends with CFS, MS and other obnoxious conditions, they are stuck in a wheelchair forever. You can still dance! Remember this.
@Lurius , do you remember asking not so long ago if you will feel like this for the rest of your life? And i told you that nobody really knows and that you might feel better in the future? Well...it happened. :)
@Freerunner , just keep your head above the water. We'll see what the future brings.
@Freerunner , just keep your head above the water. We'll see what the future brings.
I think the most important thing i should learn from this experience is that there are many things that i don't have control over. It's the hardest thing for me to accept. This is like quicksands, if you struggle and panick it will be more difficult to escape.
I used to be so strong and successful in life, I was achieving my goals with a steady pace. I enjoyed live. This ruined everything. If it stayed with the hiss from the onset 3 months ago I would be alright. But noooo - severe hyperacusis and constantly worsening tinnitus with 7-8 maybe 10 tones now constantly highering the baseline, spiking from a brief talk.
How many people on the forum have this constant worsening from out of nowhere? Not many I can tell you and bearing in mind here are the most severe cases. There is no hope for me for sure, I just hope you guys get better, I really do.
@Freerunner I am just like you... Worsening... each day...I am beyond deperate... Mild T in November, only 1 or 2 tones max...
@Freerunner that's not true. Many, many people on this forum experience a worsening from out of nowhere. I myself, are included in that.
What @Steph1710 said! You are not the only one, Started with a mild EEE that got worse in April and continued to get worse for reasons I fully don't know why. September is when hyperacusis started getting better. I had a bunch of indescribable and disturbing tinnitus noise, but a lot of them have gone.
I still have issues, but remember it's a very slow and nonlinear process of upward progression. You will get there too. We all wish we could go back in time when our T was much more simple.
You can do this Freerunner! I know exactly how you feel, it is the worst feeling on earth but it is the card that we were dealt and we have to keep playing it, no matter how painful it is...We are with you here buddy so hang in there.
Crying makes you congested, unless you scream no harm done.