Tinnitus Talk Support Forum

makeyourownluck
My depression predates my tinnitus. I was borderline suicidal for 5ish months. All my health issues flared up at the same time, it was horrible. I'm having a better spell now though.
makeyourownluck
You are only 1 month into this, what you are feeling is very normal. It will get better, or possibly even resolve completely. I know it doesn't feel like that right now, but it gets easier to deal with.

If you ever want to chat, I'm always kicking about here.
CC_16
Your depression came 1st, then t showed up? But girl you have a child and you have a loving man, why were you even suicidal? I am praying for those things
makeyourownluck
I got depression because of chronic pain (lupus). That shit sucks lol. My T came after.

Even though I have a child, and had a man, it didn't change how incredibly difficult the situation was.

The combination of T, not being able to walk, being in constant pain, and not being able to care for your child, is enough to make anyone feel suicidal.
makeyourownluck
But yes, my daughter is the main reason I'm still here.
CC_16
Yea I believe having a kid is like this moral pillar that you have to stay alive and strong to take care her, thus keep you motivated. You can't commit suicide. I want kids but don't have any yet. Now I have t. Such a messy situation
CC_16
There are treatment options for lupus. Are you taking any of that? I am a healthcare provider myself.
CC_16
Hug~~
makeyourownluck
I have a Rheumatologist but they want me to go on hydroxy because I have no organ involvement. Said it's a bit too risky to put me on immunosuppressives atm.

Hydroxy causes hearing loss and I really couldn't handle my tinnitus getting worse. So I grin a bear it mostly.
CC_16
Oh I see. That sucks that you can't take the drug of choice for lupus.
makeyourownluck
Yeah, tinnitus is a right pain. Afraid to take so many medications. Only use a strong anti inflammatory when the pain gets too intense, and Valium 2 times a week.
makeyourownluck
Surprisingly, the addition of Valium has been a great for my sciatica. I'm thinking it must be due to some muscle tension somewhere. However, I've done PT and a bio mechanical scan, nobody can find any obvious imbalances.
makeyourownluck
Anyway, onwards and upwards. I'm sure we will both have better days ahead. I am honestly so much better than I was 6 months ago. Can't even begin to put it into words.

Try stay positive. You will find a man, and have a child if you want to. So many children out there who need adopted, that's always an option.