You're trying to find a cure, and not to accept it, i think that's why you're stucked in this state i think. Do you hear your T in all situations? Because if not that's already a good point! You must see the positive and not the negative!
Thing was I accepted it after a year and then screwed it up and made it worse permanently. So I'm back at square one and it will take longer this time. I hear it all the time even in the shower now. Before I could mask it. Now I can't.