Take a step back @ErikaS Try to rest up as much as possible, and focus on you. Hopefully you are in a much better place in 6-12 months time. Feeling lost and hopeless is human, but have faith in better days ahead.
Thank you @MindOverMatter .. I just feel like anything I do or have done these past 5 months is the "wrong" thing. I have not used ear protection much at all but have limited my environments greatly while trying to take in ambient daily sounds at home, and I only drive when needed to therapy and make a store run. Reactivity has not improved, so I have the opportunity to do TRT…
@MindOverMatter I felt somewhat okay and good about it after my follow up yesterday, however I've been warned here by some who really think it would just make me worse/have no positive affect. Meanwhile, I am just trying to help myself. All very hard to navigate when you feel you try your best.
@ErikaS Yes, it is difficult to navigate at times. I've been going to counselling (with an audiologist specialized in t/h) over a span of about 2,5 yrs. To me this has been an important factor to understand the mechanisms of the mind and body, and how to learn to draw attention away from it. If you have found someone that is knowledgeable, and you have sort of good chemistry with, make it a fair shot.
You get very conflicting advice on here at times. What works for one my not work for another.
Some people carry on with life and it fades, others it doesn't.
You do what you think is best :) it's good to take a break from here as it won't be an all consuming focus @ErikaS .