I know. Me too and can't seem to still either.
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There's so many of us out there in the world who have to face this reality. All we can do is support each other and hope that in time we will get to a better place then what we're in today.
I often find myself looking at old photographs or remembering old events, when everything was still good. Probably not helpful, but can't do anything about it.