No shame in it. I'm considering a return to AD for a while to help me through my current spike/worsening.
@kingsfan have you tried fluoxetine? It didn't spike me before so I'm giving it another go. Starting to wish now I would have just stayed on it.
@kingsfan I'm assuming the AD caused spikes subsided once you stopped the meds? That's my biggest fear. A med spike that doesn't subside.