1) New therapy intervention called brainspotting/somatic therapy. Unloading a lot of grief, trauma, pain, heartbreak, etc through this therapy I feel has allowed me to mentally handle my tinnitus better. When I say that, I mean I am better able to control my mental and emotional reaction to the tinnitus…
I usually fixate on my tinnitus and try to determine is it worsening, is it the same, any better? This whole past week I basically said "ef that" and did not allow it to consume me. I got out of the house, I took small trips to quieter stores, I pushed myself to do more around the house. I basically told myself I need to change something, so I am trying my best to work on the mental aspect.
2) I have my ENT looking into lidocaine shots in/around the ear so that gives me some hope, and I have the option of the NeuroCytonix intervention in the new year if I choose to go that route. Having possible "things" to try gives me some hope.
Thank you @ZFire .. I wouldn't say he is leaving me because of the condition. After our 3 years of infertility and no success, only heartbreak, and then my tinnitus, his demons (addictive tendencies, depression, etc) took over. He turned to weed behind my back in beginning of May and smoked a pen for 3 months every day. He is predisposed to bi-polar 1 in his family, and weed makes him enter a manic mental state
@ZFire He knows this, it has happened 2x before in his life, yet he still took to the risk, even after I suggested him getting actual help. Well let's just say the months of July to October were the worst months of my entire life. He went on a severe manic trip, refused help, & lit our marriage on fire by acting like a bachelor & spending so much money while I was just trying to survive my condition.
He field for divorce in early October (a lot of people who go into manic think they want to leave their S.O.).. He started to come down from the manic some in November to the point where he could realize what he had done and the mortifying atomic bomb he let off, but he's still not back to baseline and refuses pharmaceutical intervention.