Tinnitus Talk Support Forum

Thank you @4Grace .. i hope you have a good day as well. I did have a good long sleep yesterday, that was really good. Other than that.. i've been feeling kinda on edge, which hasn't been too pleasant. I hope my thoughts will ease down. For today, the rest of the day, i'm just gonna distract, enjoy myself with gaming a bit for now..

I feel 2 ways.. on one hand, just pff difficult years it has been. It felt like such a heavy load on my mind. On the other hand, there are things to be grateful for (not having to work full time, a better place to live, less stressful life situation), inspiration, hope for a better tomorrow. Thank you and wishing both of you a good day as well

@4Grace quite frankly, i'm not doing too well.. this condition.. i feel a lot of suffering.. it's just beserk quite frankly.. the only thing that keeps me going is hope for better days. I hope you are doing well my friend, you are an inspiration to me & i think about you.. good wishes brother

@L along the way - if I may use the phrase pfff - I am far from an inspiration. Thank you regardless for the kind words. You are a true inspiration. I have a unique situation that makes thing a little hard. Being on edge is an understatement. I really don't know how to survive this. I was just at a family get together.

@L along the way - had some deserts. Had not had in a very long time. My T began screaming. Then people hug it loud. I could barely eat anything because my T reacts to everything. Everyone's having a good time. Had to leave on my own. Typing in my car.

@L along the way - I love God but I feel I unknowingly and knowingly let him down. I have learned a life time worth of lessons. I'm bringing my family down due to restrictions. I want to go so they don't have to suffer but I'm not strong enough to do that …

@L along the way - my T is progressing. If it was stable and non reactive I would have been so much better. My family tells me to tough it out. Any ground I make eliminated by my T that's progressing. Never in a million years. Reactive T is a monster of a condition. With all
My heart I wish you well. Nobody deserves this type of suffering. I would not wish it on my worst enemy.

@L along the way - I got the courage to get back on my bike only to be blasted by an ambulance. I come home and can't say anything to my family because I am supposed to be working on getting better. However I'm dealing with a worsening I cannot put in words. My condition honest to God is a new one everyday. I would not believe it if it was not happening to me.

@4Grace well.. i'm also far from an inspiration to be honest. I'm a mess... at this point. However, there is hope.. that someday i'll feel well again. What a dream that is indeed...
Thank you for your kindness too.
I also said that phrase to myself.. i would not wish this kind of suffering to my worst enemy. pff pfft indeed..

With God, i'm quite confused to be honest. I do believe in something, a higher power. But i don't know what that is. But i do believe there must be something, Good. Sometimes i just add an "o", God, something which is Good

But then, real life.. i don't want to complain or throw a pity party.. but just factually nerdy.. like how can a person bear all this stuff.. it's just beyond nuts..
And then, thinking about god.. it goes 2 ways.. did i let him down, or did he let me down? Or did the t let it all down?

I think we shouldn't blame ourselves too much.. because t is something we never asked for. I do believe in something good, but what that is, is a mystery, and how real life is.. well.. complicated to say the least