I know that feeling Kiyomi. The early months are absolute hell, I was in a very dark place too when I started experiencing distortions and sound sensitivity all at once out of nowhere. You can come back from this, but it takes a lot of time. For me it took at least a year and a few months to feel like it was finally improving.
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@TheCapybara I can deal with H and the distortions. I can deal with normal static T too.
What I can't deal with is my ears feeling just destroyed. High pitched hissing, neuron firing, oscillating T.
What I can't deal with is my ears feeling just destroyed. High pitched hissing, neuron firing, oscillating T.
@TheCapybara If I stay in silence for long and do nothing, all tones calm down and I actually have silence sometimes, but If I dare to do more than just existing or have some fun, reactive T or aural fullness will step right in.
I just want my old life back. I miss my music so much, I miss playing with my friends, I miss studying. It's all gone. I'm alone everyday. WHY does it need to be reactive? Why does stuff like this even exist.
No one irl understands, I have no one to talk to without it ending in "I can't help you". How even explain this to friends if even the "professionals" brush it of as a mental issue?? Everytime I try to go that route I get trashed + my ears get finished even more.
I can't believe this is it? Worrying about my ears everytime I leave my home, leaving all hobbies that defined me. Ears destroyed.
All because of 30 minutes of loud music, all because I thought my ears can handle it. It's all my fault. Will these be the final things I think about before I go?
All because of 30 minutes of loud music, all because I thought my ears can handle it. It's all my fault. Will these be the final things I think about before I go?
@Kiyomi It's not your fault. There aren't enough people out there warning others about the dangers of sounds and headsets until it's too late and we end up on the forums. I did blame myself too for being stupid but it comes down to a lack of creating awareness. None of us could have known about things like reactivity, distortions or pain sensitivity until it happened.
@TheCapybara I read about the dangers of tinnitus two weeks before it happened. I actually remembered the reddit post I had read while sitting in the car getting my ears destroyed. I would have never listened to music that loud, but I wasn't driving. I did not say anything, but I should have. I still can't get over it three months later and I think I never will.