A friends success story for you. It took him 4 years. It's very loud. He was afraid to go out for 3 years. Depressed. Stressed. Anxiety. Now his exposing. He told me his T spikes hard but he no longer has an emotional reaction to it. He no longer notices how loud it is and it's loud.
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To me it's getting back to living regardless of how loud it gets. I have ruined my life attempting to protect but getting worse anyway. I am not giving advice to just go out however all the people I know with T don't know about protection. They just live and they are the ones that seem to be doing better, however everyone's T is different.
Well.. friend.. that is a positive story. But again, i do appreciate your honesty, whether positive or negative. Your negative sharings actually helped me to less sugar coat my own suffering, and not pretend everything is fine. Yeah, i'm fine, fearful, insecure, neurotic and emotional lol heheh.
Well.. i slept well last night (no alcohol but 2 doses of temazepam helped me).. today woke up.. hear painful t.. felt down about it..
But i do like your idea, that getting back to living, feeling more at ease regardless of t.. but yeah, it has shown it hasn't been be so easy to reach that kind of state yet (for any of us).. but having hope that the intensity of t also gets less over time.. Thank you friend for all your sharings, i quote you too, today a new day, just breathe and trying to go with a Good flow
Thank you my friend. Once again you are correct. I appreciate you saying that… I have a hard time sugar costing anything. I usually talk about me deepest fears. What I am feeling. I can't pretend different. I was once more positive. Days I felt I can do this… the progression is killing me. I never get a break from the blasting.
@4Grace thank you brother. But well.. what do i know? I just feel a desire to not suffer, just like we all do. To me, i appreciate your genuine and authentic sharings. I also don't want to pretend positivity, it seems better to keep it real.
Maybe it's best to not make a "solid identity" out of either one (negative/positive).. Like.. sometimes i'm complaining, and sometimes i'm hopeful. Both are genuine expressions... so then just going from moment to moment? I don't know..
I mean, of course i do hope that wellbeing and positivity will prevail... meaning for real.. i also can't pretend anymore. These last few years it has been a nightmare.. uff.. different thoughts about it like.. enduring/wishing it all would just be over/ or healing..
Just to feel natural wellbeing within myself would be a dream come true. Luckily there have been some improvements (sadly not really with t.. but being able financially to work less, and more nature around)..
What i read from you, friend.. it's harsh.. i wish.. a break & restoration will come. I pray relief and ease can and will come. I guess we should try to not be too hard on ourselves, we didn't ask for all this. Please we will heal please some day.. breathing.. going day to day..
@L along the way - thank you my friend. Love your wisdom. Once again do not be discouraged by my posts. I have been doing some soul searching. I went through a cancer scare plus a lot of other trauma at the same time. It put my body into major shock. It was a lot to deal with. That eventually turned into Tinnitus. It's never just Tinnitus. You got this. Hang on for a better day. Keep doing what you are doing.
@4Grace well thank you.. somehow you seem to feel a bit like i've got it all figured out, but that's not the case at all. It's a big question mark to me too (and frankly, those who claim to know a lot, i'm a bit cautious of that)...
And sadly, i'm suffering on the daily too.. maybe i don't often use harsh words.. but i've felt many many times that i just would end it, it felt absolutely too much to bare. If i ever would self conclude, i would not just be gone from this forum, but let it know.
But then again, i don't really really want to end it, i just wish the suffering to end, and then sometimes because i can't figure a way out, i get these thoughts about self conclusion, pfft it has been harsh harsh.
But again, it's not something i really wish in my heart, the real wish is the suffering to end, and to live easefully and wellbeing. I do find inspiration from a quote by Bruce Lee btw "don't pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one".