If you can't change or leave it, your only option is to accept it.
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I 'acquired' my T in what I believe to be in the exact same way. It took a long time of self-loathing, that I had nobody else to blame but myself. (It's so much easier to except the fault of others & not your own!), but.. You'll learn to accept it as I did, given time. Until then, try & go easy on yourself 
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If you knew what would happend, you would not have done it! its not you fault!