Your asking yourself a question non have the answer to (as you know). But, I think what is essential here @Tryn2BHopeful is to have gratitude for the better days. Practicing this makes those less good days (which you refer to as hell), easier to cope with - and all in all, life becomes more fulfilling.
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We also shouldn't forget about all the suffering around the world - which pretty much no people asked for. We can ask ourselves "Why me" on repeat, but it won't help one but - its just another road block for the brain to adjust.