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  1. Autumnwillows

    Suicidal

    @ajc, it's ok, they lost me at the guy on the website saying how much their bloody information booklet helped him and to ignore it. I'm thrilled for him but if the stuff that's been used helped me, I wouldn't have been at the doctor begging for help lol.
  2. Autumnwillows

    Suicidal

    @Tanni, thank you hunnie. I'm certainly going to try my best. Went home this weekend and was lovely but now I have a vibrating echo every time I speak or someone else is speaking! In my left ear, really horrible feeling. Just can't make this stuff up sometimes, had mini break down and just...
  3. Autumnwillows

    Suicidal

    @TheDanishGirl, I agree with being wary of Mirtazapine. I haven't taken it for tinnitus, but when I first got CFS I took it and at first it was nice for sleep, but after a while it made me so much worse, I started craving sugar, and alcohol and would be very depressed so much so one day I took...
  4. Autumnwillows

    Suicidal

    Need to rant. Sorry people but I just don't understand life, I lived in a town next to a helicopter manufacturers, in fact my house right next to it and under a main flight path, I lived there a year, trapped inside each day before it got too much and moved to my sister's an hour away, it was...
  5. Autumnwillows

    Suicidal

    Sorry for later reply. Well, it's all gone to pot as the doctor won't prescribe me anything but anti-depressants and the ones he did are no good looking on here as to potential side effects to my tinnitus, he didn't even try. Took the Zopiclone, only half, and had three days of horror...
  6. Autumnwillows

    Suicidal

    Thank you @GBB. I will have a read, currently reading the Clonazepam post. I've been prescribed it before but was too scared back then. Yes @Sayeed, I've got nothing left to lose, I also suffer with CFS so find each day such a battle, it's all quite heart breaking to get to this point.
  7. Autumnwillows

    Suicidal

    Thank you @Sayeed, I wish I could keep fighting. It makes me shake with anxiety and I'm controlled by my fear of noise making it worse. Unfortunately, I believe in the UK I will need a prescription; that's if the docter ever gets back to me lol. Nothing worse than feeling like this and then...
  8. Autumnwillows

    Suicidal

    @livewire77, thank you. I have a crippling fear of taking anything and waking up worse for it, but my ears rip me from sleep each night now, and it's always been worse if I can't sleep.
  9. Autumnwillows

    Suicidal

    This demon has slowly been killing me and as of now it's nearly won. I've lost everything trying to fight it and it's only become worse. A month ago a balloon popped next to me, my already horrendous tinnitus is now worse with an added deep rumble in both ears, I'm beyond sick and have made...
  10. Autumnwillows

    Don't Know What to Do Anymore, Terribly Lonely and Scared. Reaching Out.

    Oh dear wrote a long rely but it didn't post Iol, I was mostly ranting about a bad experience this week with a doctor but it's off my chest at least, Its shocking how little knowledge and support comes from from the medical community, but basically he's told me tinnitus may be bad but most...
  11. Autumnwillows

    Don't Know What to Do Anymore, Terribly Lonely and Scared. Reaching Out.

    I'm in rented hun, sad thing is we were gonna try and buy this year, but it's a lifetime away now without work, I had a really good job aswel, we can't move yet as under contract till August then somehow I need to find a way of renting a three bed house on one income. And ideally to another town...
  12. Autumnwillows

    Don't Know What to Do Anymore, Terribly Lonely and Scared. Reaching Out.

    Thanks hun i have some ear muffs, you should me panic to.get the stupid things on my head when a helicopter is on it's way, got my self in a fine mess but it would be a sketch show to anyone else, they fold in and are really hard to put on! But feel better they are offering protection at lease...
  13. Autumnwillows

    Don't Know What to Do Anymore, Terribly Lonely and Scared. Reaching Out.

    Could anyone advise me on my fear of the helicopters noise, am I right to be concerned about them preventing me hearing from healing as they are constant in my day Thank you all who sent such supportive reply's it s helping x
  14. Autumnwillows

    Don't Know What to Do Anymore, Terribly Lonely and Scared. Reaching Out.

    I couldn't find out how to, my daughter came home from after school just then and seen me upset, I hate conflict and my heart is racing Don't know if this was a good idea. Il be honest yesterday i had an ambulance called out by the woman on an advice line i was talking to as she was concerned...
  15. Autumnwillows

    Don't Know What to Do Anymore, Terribly Lonely and Scared. Reaching Out.

    I'm sorry I've caused an issue I'll remove my post
  16. Autumnwillows

    Don't Know What to Do Anymore, Terribly Lonely and Scared. Reaching Out.

    I have indeed had hearing texts and an ent who wouldn't look me in the eye, all normal, don't have any copy of it though
  17. Autumnwillows

    Don't Know What to Do Anymore, Terribly Lonely and Scared. Reaching Out.

    I'm trying so hard to find hope.in this dark place, I also have cfs and was already balancing that with a life. I've got myself out and confidant and felt like I was winning but after that alarm,having to quit my job 10 mins later then out on the street after I'm completely drained, and now...
  18. Autumnwillows

    Don't Know What to Do Anymore, Terribly Lonely and Scared. Reaching Out.

    My life has become living purgatory, and I spend my day mourning everything I've lost and will never do. I read this forum and see the replies I'd get if I posted so never have but desperate for some support, no one can't help me I know that but I feel I should at least try here. I've battled...