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  1. joe e

    Suicidal

    I so wish sufferers like us could find peace. I keep losing to the survival instinct and suffer immeasurably for it. May I ask, how is your sleep, as I am suffering near total insomnia.
  2. joe e

    Suicidal

    So many of your comments sound exactly like how I think. Do you ever feel like tinnitus has impaired your ability to learn new information or think clearly? This devastates me. I sometimes imagine people in very early stage dementia might feel like this.
  3. joe e

    Suicidal

    I didn't know suffering like what I'm experiencing existed, and I still couldn't go through with what you mentioned. It was an option until i actually got there. I understand you PeteJ. I truly do.
  4. joe e

    Suicidal

    I know exactly what you mean. I wont give disturbing details, but I was in my room in the middle of the night about to go through with it for about 20 minutes. I just couldn't, it's an impossible feeling to describe, every bit of me wants this nightmare to end, but fear became the stronger...
  5. joe e

    Suicidal

    It is so VERY different to want to die vs actually going through with it. I learned this personally a few weeks ago after I couldn't go through with it. Some people will of course do it, but some like me, are just not able to and will reluctantly suffer. Suicidal people wont know until they...
  6. joe e

    Suicidal

    This. ...and to daydream of and plan my future the way i did before tinnitus. Losing this crushed my spirit.
  7. joe e

    I Don't Understand What Kind of Tinnitus Others Are Hearing to Be Able to Cope

    Tried Seroquel last night...it caused the loudest spike I have ever experienced. I feel a little weaker every day. I pray for us all.
  8. joe e

    I Don't Understand What Kind of Tinnitus Others Are Hearing to Be Able to Cope

    Five months of tinnitus and desperate. I read all these stories of people working and going about their lives like tinnitus is just an annoyance. I just don't get it. I'm barely functional. Masking it is laughable... I can almost "feel" the loud ultra high frequency noises, with different...
  9. joe e

    Really Weird Morse Code / Typewriter Tinnitus in Right Ear

    Hi Bar, I wonder if one of the many sounds of my T is what you are describing. I used to call it a flute-like sound due to its random intermittent tone...an electronic morse code could indeed also describe it. Its very strange characteristic is how it changes slightly with pressure on my...
  10. joe e

    Am I Just Weak or Is My Tinnitus Too Loud? Struggling

    I'm so scared. After nearly 4 months I'm really struggling. Life completely changed. Am I just weak, is tinnitus too loud? Feel like I'm losing my mind. Please forgive negative post, wish I were better.
  11. joe e

    Hello Everyone; I Welcome Any Support

    Hi Contrast! No obvious history that jumps out like concerts or explosions, etc. But I've experienced a lifetime of noises such as the gym, traffic commute, occasional bars and flying...just typical loud stuff. Could it all add up to hearing damage?
  12. joe e

    Hello Everyone; I Welcome Any Support

    Thank you billie! Honestly, I'm scared right now. I pray it gets better.
  13. joe e

    Hello Everyone; I Welcome Any Support

    I first want to say thank you to all the helpful and informative members on this forum! The short version of my story is that I woke up with a slight buzz in my left ear about 3 months ago. I recall looking around my dark bedroom to see where the noise is coming from; I really didn't understand...