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  1. Jaybeee

    Hello and Wow This Sucks

    @NatureHiker I like this idea. Gives me hope I caused this and I can cure it!
  2. Jaybeee

    Having a Tough Time!

    @glynis you are such a star! I hope I can find just a smidgen of the strength that you show. Hope you have a lovely Easter xxx
  3. Jaybeee

    The Positivity Thread

    @ShaunR thank you so much for your story. I am struggling with the idea that I will lead a normal life again. I just can't see it and have a moment every day where I think I need hospitalisation. You have given me hope x
  4. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @jjflyman thank you so much for your post. It gives me such hope to hear positive outcomes. I really appreciate you taking the time to stop by. Good luck with your T xxx
  5. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @PeterParker yes, you are right. Had plenty of panic attacks, fighting one now. I'm off to do some YouTube meditation. Thanks.
  6. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @PeterParker oh god, r u suggesting my stress will cause permanent damage?
  7. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @Kelvin @Lorenzo74 @Samantha R @glynis thank you all for your support. I don't know what it is about the mornings (apart from no sleep whatsoever) that have a devastating effect on me. I can't see any way out of this hole I'm in. My neighbour came around to sort me out. I took another Valium...
  8. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    Please help anyone. I'm in a terrible state
  9. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @Michael B I seriously doubt I am in a better place than you were. I don't see any light at the end of the tunnel. I see my life as over and it hurts incredibly
  10. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @Michael B i had slept quite well the last two nights. Don't know why tonight is so bad. I did feel rather more anxious when I came to bed. My anxiety fluctuates. And I have been using sounds at night all along. If I didn't share a bed with hubby I would probably use a meditation YouTube right...
  11. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @Michael B but knowing you have bad days after six years freaks me out. I could be physically sick, I'm so scared and tired of all this. It's only been six weeks and I can't believe what has happened
  12. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @GregCA I do. I have Valium, and some type of sleeping tablet that I haven't dared take yet. I have to be up in three hours to function as a mother so taking a med now (its 4.40 am) is probably not an option. This is my worst night so far.
  13. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    I have been awake all night and I feel as though I am at breaking point. This has to be the lowest point in my life and I can't see a way out of this living hell. What have my family done to deserve this? Please help
  14. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    Thank you both @Kelvin @Michael Leigh I think I must take the meds because currently I go to bed and I don't want to wake up again. Yesterday was horrendous. The noise was really intrusive and my husband is starting to get frustrated with my depression.
  15. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    Oh God, another Monday morning comes around and I awake with the realisation that I have T and I feel sick to the pit of my stomach. Why have I bean dealt ths? I know I will spend my morning in a heap in the corner of my room blubbering all alone after my family have left me for the day leading...
  16. Jaybeee

    Sleeping Well Makes Tinnitus Louder?

    @Ed209 Hi Ed. I had a good 8 hours. It was bliss and I awoke refreshed. Unfortunately my T was then the loudest it's been for the whole day then. I noticed the same when I attempted using mirtazapine on two occasions - great sleep but loud T.
  17. Jaybeee

    Sleeping Well Makes Tinnitus Louder?

    Has anyone noticed that a good sleep worsens their tinnitus?
  18. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    Hi all. So after a bad week, with little quality sleep, I had a very good night's sleep last night. I had to sleep on my stomach as I had developed a bad back for a couple of days (which resulted in a major panic attack in the night and a visit by thr paramedics the previous night). It was such...
  19. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @Mentos @Michael Leigh thanks both. Michael, you are right, I wasn't functioning at work, and unfortunately my employers have told me to home and get well. That will take me a while and so I can't go back to work, even if I wanted to. I'm hoping the better weather will help me through this...
  20. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    Oh dear, in a bad way again. So much for me keeping away. Candy has managed to frighten me off the citalopram and I feel desperately anxious. I can't cope with these desperately dark moments
  21. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @Samantha R would you mind PM me?
  22. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @glynis @Michael Leigh @Ed209 @Samantha R @Candy thank you everyone. My day yesterday went from one of sheer despair (as most days are in the mornings) to one of hope thanks to sun, T nurse, GP, counsellor and my wonderful husband (though 2.5 mg diazepam may be the real cause!). I have been...
  23. Jaybeee

    Please Help. I Don't Know How to Cope.

    I've read that the symptoms you are talking about can be anxiety related early on in the T journey. My T started with ear fullness which dissipated after a week but I now get a muzzy feeling at times and my right ear vibrates when there is a lot of sound. We do become very aware of sound early...
  24. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @Samantha R it sounds so simple ..... why can't they just make a drug like diazepam that isn't addictive?! I too researched the ADs and asked my gp for mirtazapine. But the louder T each morning I tried it meant I just couldn't possibly keep trying it. Maybe it was the sedative side of things...
  25. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    I'm also wondering, if a small dose of diazepam makes the noise go quiet, does that suggest a huge anxiety my T?
  26. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @Candy did you take any meds early days?
  27. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @Candy thank you for your advice.
  28. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @Ed209 hi Ed. Did you ever take ADs? @Samantha R your situation sounds very similar to mine. I awoke with ear fullness and once that had gone, I latched on to a brain sound that I feel might have always been there. But things are a bit of a blur as panic set in right away and my memory of...
  29. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    Why do the mornings feel so bad? I have had 2.5 mg Valium to help this morning but it hasn't even touched the sides. I only ever take them occasionally, twice a week at the moment, but after thinking my anxiety was getting better, I am now struggling again to,sleep because of adrenaline. I...
  30. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @Ed209 @Michael Leigh thanks both xx. Michael, are the likes of sertraline etc classed as mild antidepressants?
  31. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @Kelvin @Samantha R @Michael Leigh @Ed209 @glynis thanks guys. It means so much that you take time to respond with such good suggestions. I know this has to be a turning point for me. I had gone back to work last week but today they have sent me home and they don't want me back until I'm better...
  32. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @Ed209 thanks as ever for responding. I know I am making it worse. I thought I was doing better. I was sleeping better somewhat. But this week my anxiety is picking up again. And I know I am spiralling down further and further. I don't know how to pick myself up. Maybe I am so tired. I would...
  33. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    And there's the brutality of it. I can't eat, I can't drink wine, I can't stand noisy places now because of vibrations in my one ear. I even had to cancel my Easter holiday. It's not so much what I've gained ( as much as I hate T) but all the things I have lost because of it. I know I probably...
  34. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @glynis thank you Glynis. There are so many horrid stories on here about worsening T after meds. I don't know where to turn @Michael Leigh thanks for your reply. I don't even have T that bad compared to most yet I'm devastated.
  35. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    I'm so sorry to keep posting like this, but I just can't stop crying. I'm finding this so hard to accept. I have so many people telling me I should take the antidepressants prescribed (Sertraline) but I am so scared.
  36. Jaybeee

    Really Need a Bit of Help... I've Developed a Fullness in One of My Ears

    Paul, my problems started with an ear fullness in my right ear. Two days later I developed a low rumbling in my head on that side plus high pitched whine on my left side. Took some sudafed and bit of antihistamine. Ear fullness and rumbling disappeared after a week but my high pitched whine...
  37. Jaybeee

    Really Need a Bit of Help... I've Developed a Fullness in One of My Ears

    @Ed209 hi Ed. Are your allergies the cause of ETD/T? Have you had allergy testing? I suspect ETD and nasal drip etc as the cause of my T. All started with ear fullness.
  38. Jaybeee

    Fluctuating Tinnitus and the Impact of Certain Foods?

    Thanks for your responses. I'd still be interested to hear from those who have non-t days and if they find their usually spikey foods don't have an effect on non-t days?
  39. Jaybeee

    In Need of Some Positivity Please

    Thanks guys. It means a lot to get your responses and that you take the time (and often for some of you!) to help me out. It means the world to hear there will be improvement. Xx
  40. Jaybeee

    Sleep and Tinnitus — How Does Everyone Cope?

    I use a pillow speaker with nature sounds. Couldn't sleep at all in the first weeks but now I have gone back to work and using a sleep meditation aid on YouTube is definitely helping me to drop off.
  41. Jaybeee

    Hello Everyone — Overall I'm Better

    Good to hear you are feeling better. I hope and pray I can improve my positivity about life and T soon. Xx
  42. Jaybeee

    In Need of Some Positivity Please

    Oh dear, I could do with some positivity please. Only a few weeks into my T journey and I am already so tired of the 24/7 thinking. I just want my old wonderful life back. Every morning it hits me like a ton of bricks and I still can't believe this has happened to me. At least I can be...
  43. Jaybeee

    Fluctuating Tinnitus and the Impact of Certain Foods?

    @Michael Leigh thanks Michael for your response. I know you decided early in not to deny yourself foods as it was only causing you more suffering, and I couldn't agree more. I'd love a bar of chocolate and a huge glass of white wine. But I had a spike early on that I put down to a handful of...
  44. Jaybeee

    First Thread. All Info Is Welcome

    I couldn't agree more. My husband doesn't like me using the forum because he thinks it fuels my anxiety. But I'd be lost without the support of those who hang around just to help us newbies out. Hope you feel better soon. I can't wait to get through this distressing state xx
  45. Jaybeee

    Fluctuating Tinnitus and the Impact of Certain Foods?

    Hi folks. Do you have days where you cannot hear your T because it fluctuates. I'm new to this T and am terrified of spikes because of something I might eat. Consequently my diet is pretty limited at the moment whilst I take time to get used to T. Question - if you experience spikes because of...
  46. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    @Ed209 thanks for your thoughts. I really appreciate that you took the time to respond. It means so much that people care. I don't know what started my T and I worry that my anxiety is exacerbating the T permanently. So many stories where people attribute their T onset to anxiety/stress. But...
  47. Jaybeee

    Feeling Desperate...

    Oh dear, I am really struggling with this T thing. I really can't see how anyone can habituate when every waking moment is taken over by T. I have an obsessive anxious nature. My T Is relatively new and fluctuates. Even when I have a day when I can't hear it, I have panic attacks because I...
  48. Jaybeee

    Meditation Apps

    Hi All. Anybody got any favourite meditation/mindfulness apps that they use. Don't mind a fee paying app as long as it's good for T! Thanks guys xx
  49. Jaybeee

    Tinnitus Specialist in Ireland/UK: Recommendation?

    @Paul10 @Michael Leigh seeing a psyche is nigh on impossible without a very long wait I think, unless I'm an persuade audiologist to refer me urgently. Or I could go private possibly with our health insurance. But not sure how to find the most suitable. Michael, my t started after a very...
  50. Jaybeee

    Tinnitus Specialist in Ireland/UK: Recommendation?

    @Paul10 @Michael Leigh hi both. Thanks for your advice. I have an appt with the tinnitus nurse in a couple of weeks and she is going to give me a white noise generator if applicable. I don't know if there are any reasons why someone might not get one? My fear about the NHS is a lack of...
  51. Jaybeee

    Tinnitus Specialist in Ireland/UK: Recommendation?

    Hi folks in UK. Is there such a thing as a tinnitus specialist in the UK who is genuine and not out to make money? or even an NHS specialist? Many thanks.
  52. Jaybeee

    Please Help... Night from Hell

    @fhs I sincerely hope so. I had an excellent day yesterday. Barely audible. Back up again today though so I do hope my baseline is as yesterday! Edit. Though of course could have been reduced by Valium. I see a correlation with the weather though.
  53. Jaybeee

    Any Correlation with the Weather?!

    @glynis Glynis, that sounds like a divine drug! I think I will check with my gp when I see her Monday. Thank you for your help xx
  54. Jaybeee

    Any Correlation with the Weather?!

    @glynis thanks Glynis. I have seen a lot of your posts and am interested in your take on amitryptyline. I took mirtazapine for one night and freaked out because my T was worse the next day. Turns out my T is varying every day anyhow (best days being when it is sunny!). But I know I need to...
  55. Jaybeee

    Idea About What Might Be Causing the Fluctuation of Tinnitus

    @JasonP hi there. I have fluctuating T. Still early days for me but yesterday was barely audible and the sun was shining. Best weather we have has since my T started. Do you think weather may have an effect on hormones, rhythms etc?
  56. Jaybeee

    Any Correlation with the Weather?!

    @Kelvin thanks Kelvin. T is such a terrible thing to have. I am struggling to think this is now my life. My husband is being very supportive but he is such a laid back person I know he doesn't understand about anxiety and it's related issues. He is going away Saturday for 4 days and I am...
  57. Jaybeee

    Any Correlation with the Weather?!

    Sorry, me again! Still very early days for me so still trying to come to terms and struggling. Yesterday my t was barely audible. I have noticed my good days seem to be when the weather is sunny. Does that make sense to anyone? Today, back to annoying noise and we have full cloud cover.
  58. Jaybeee

    Please Help... Night from Hell

    @Blackneq are you taking any meds.
  59. Jaybeee

    Help!

    @Kat2u how are you feeling today? I had the worst night last night. My T was loudest it has been. Had to resort to Valium in the end. Xxx
  60. Jaybeee

    Help!

    Hi @MikeL1972 Thanks for your reply. What are the statistics re the chance of it vanishing/abating? I don't see much on here or the internet about the possibility of it vanishing.