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  1. UKJon

    Tinnitus Back After I Thought It Had Gone

    Thank you both. And thanks Glynis especially because I know how long you've been supporting people on here and how loyal you are to this cause. I do hope you're right. Perhaps it's just a 'wobble'.
  2. UKJon

    Tinnitus Back After I Thought It Had Gone

    How cruel it is when tinnitus returns after virtually disappearing for some months? I have been sleeping without my bedside sound system for some of January and most of February, March and April. Life had a meaning once more and I was ready to move on mentally. I've even been keeping a journal...
  3. UKJon

    Update After a Year

    Thanks Glynis. The last I read about you, you were in hospital and the ears were very bad I believe. I sincerely hope things are better for you now. Is that a new picture? For me, I guess it's all been about calming down and I suppose I must expect the odd blip occasionally. I've lost so much...
  4. UKJon

    Update After a Year

    Thanks Luman. Us carers deserve medals really. We have to give up everything for a loved one sometimes. I see you're in Brooklyn. When my confidence returns, I'd love to travel abroad again like I used to. I've never been to New York and I want to visit the Brooklyn Farmacy and try a real...
  5. UKJon

    Update After a Year

    Thankyou.
  6. UKJon

    Update After a Year

    No I didn't get ear fullness or hyperacusis. I've been exposing my ears to normal sounds of traffic/towns etc all the while. What changed was that I attempted to be calmer as a person but it has taken a long time. What helps is KNOWING that my tinnitus is NOT ear based but brain based. My...
  7. UKJon

    Update After a Year

    Greetings. I have not posted here since March 2017. I had been battling (albeit) mild tinnitus after caring for my mother and the subsequent bereavement/breakdown. 3 years of hell which really started at the end of 2014. As I type this, my tinnitus is now at the point where I hardly use my...
  8. UKJon

    Is Tinnitus Becoming More Common?

    Is tinnitus becoming more common? Will it affect a whole new generation and are tinnitus victims getting younger? How many people do you know with tinnitus? Many pubs, bars, concerts and clubs still seem to operate on the basis that louder/loudest is best. And loud music goes directly into...
  9. UKJon

    Slight/Mild Tinnitus

    Hi folks, Does anyone here have slight to mild tinnitus? By that, I mean tinnitus that is only heard in a quiet environment that is easily masked. You may even have silence at times. In which case, does it cause you great anxiety and fear even though you may only here it at night or in bed and...
  10. UKJon

    Feeling Very Desperate

    Hi Mario. I'm sorry that you're going through this fear patch. Do not discount stress. Stress can cause so many things from stomach problems to skin problems. Stress is the biggest enemy of modern society. Also, look up 'Ocular Migraines'. I've had these in the past. There is no headache but...
  11. UKJon

    Spells of Not Hearing Tinnitus

    Yes I do. Mine is also slight to mild and I also have silence at times. I only hear it in the quiet or in silence. It was brought on by the stress of caring for my sick mother then going through the bereavement 2 years ago. However, because I have OCD, depression and panic attacks, the anxiety...
  12. UKJon

    Slipping Back

    Firstly, I do not want to be castigated or vilified on here simply because I have mild tinnitus. Not everyone is sympathetic even though this is a support forum. Suffering is suffering. Fear is fear. Depression is depression. I feel I'm slipping back after 2 years with tinnitus. I don't know...
  13. UKJon

    Got Captured in Hospital

    See how much you've been missed Glynis? Best wishes to you. You're one tough cookie.
  14. UKJon

    Making the Transition. Sleeping with Tinnitus.

    It's funny because I don't hear it hardly at all during the day but it's the night that worries me. Thanks for the advice though.
  15. UKJon

    Making the Transition. Sleeping with Tinnitus.

    Why do you think your T has got worse? I've read some of your posts and I understand that you also have heart problems. It's good that you say that you're not scared of the sound any more and that you are used to it. I've been seeing a therapist and have been trying not to test and monitor my...
  16. UKJon

    Making the Transition. Sleeping with Tinnitus.

    Hi! Some people have written in 'Success Stories' that they can now sleep without sound enrichment or even masking. Is this all about relaxing again or fully accepting tinnitus? I would like to reach that stage. How is this transition made? Do some people find one day that they just drop off...
  17. UKJon

    The Bigger Picture

    Thank you for that. I'm sorry you have very invasive T.
  18. UKJon

    Obsession Over Mild Tinnitus

    Thanks Mario martz. It's not possible to have too much reassuring advice. I think that for me, the worst bit about my t is when I'm lying still at night and it's just me and the noise which also persists when I get up for a while sometimes. It's the stark contrast to the day. Something happens...
  19. UKJon

    Obsession Over Mild Tinnitus

    Hi Mentos. You can always count on Glynis. She is remarkable and non judgemental and is always supportive whatever kind of tinnitus someone has. She has been through a lot herself lately and still remains cheerful and positive. You're lucky to have your wife. My anxiety has stopped me from...
  20. UKJon

    Obsession Over Mild Tinnitus

    I am in the same boat Mentos. Tinnitus rules my life. Mine is as follows; I don't really hear it unless I'm indoors at home or in the quiet. When I come indoors into the quiet, there is often a ringing which is similar to when someone boxes your ears for you only it's small and fades once I've...
  21. UKJon

    The Bigger Picture

    I have discussed post traumatic stress with my psychotherapist and that is indeed what we think I have. I've always had anxiety problems since childhood plus depression and OCD at times. Imagine that layered over with all the other later stuff with my mum. The battery is flat and this is my...
  22. UKJon

    The Bigger Picture

    Imagine someone you love losing the use of their legs almost overnight and she goes to hospital with osteoporosis. Imagine that person collapsed outside your bedroom door at 2am in a pool of pee with two broken toes because she didn't get to the bathroom in time and no care package had been...
  23. UKJon

    If I Could Take a Pill

    As 'undecided' says 'I can't be nice', I have reported him for his second comment which is quite frankly unbelievable on a 'support' forum. As my T and subsequent suffering seems to bring out anger in some people, may I remind them that it is not necessarily the tinnitus but the reaction of the...
  24. UKJon

    If I Could Take a Pill

    Telling me to grow up doesn't exactly help. I'm 53 and used to be carefree with a job I liked and I loved foreign travel. If I could have changed my way of thinking over the last year and a half then I would have done already. For someone that has had regular thoughts of ending it all, this...
  25. UKJon

    If I Could Take a Pill

    Hi, The last time I wrote here, I had one or two people saying that I should be grateful for the fact that my tinnitus is mild. At the time, I agreed with them but right now, if I could take a pill and sleep forever then I would. The low humming that I hear in my bedroom or in the quiet has...
  26. UKJon

    Sickening

    I'm currently reading 'Tinnitus. From Tyrant to Friend' by Julian Cowan Hill. Look him up on YouTube. He has a clinic in London and recommends things like craneosacral therapy, Tai Chi or Yoga to settle not just the brain but the whole body. He believes that if you can focus more on the body as...
  27. UKJon

    Can't Do It

    Thank you all so much (again).
  28. UKJon

    Can't Do It

    Don't worry folks. I think it's about time I had some feedback like this to be honest. I'm sure there's no malice intended but I'm an obsessive worrier. What else can I say?
  29. UKJon

    Can't Do It

    Well I can't say I disagree with the second to last post. Perhaps I deserve it. But we all have different anxiety thresholds and mine is very low. My panic attacks and suicidal thoughts are real though like anybody else's. But you're right. I am an obsessive and should be thankful it's not...
  30. UKJon

    Can't Do It

    Hi good folks, I have not posted for a few days but need to now. I have been doing quite well lately considering but I'm now stuck. My T is still only noticeable in very quiet or silent places. I've been practicing mindfulness for the last few days for around 10-20 mins each day and I can get...
  31. UKJon

    Taking a Break from Posting

    Hi folks. I have been spending far too many hours at my PC and my posture/neck is not good. I'm still not fully habituated to my T after nearly 1.5 years although it only really panics me in my very quiet bedroom now. I do hope that one day I really will get to the not caring stage. Many...
  32. UKJon

    To My Dear Tinnitus Family

    Very sorry to hear this Glynis. I fully understand what you are going through having been there myself so recently. Nothing can truly prepare us for such things but I know that you are very strong and resilient and also have limitless kindness for so many people on this site that you have never...
  33. UKJon

    Confession

    Yes, terrible hyperventilating panic attacks that can last all day.
  34. UKJon

    Confession

    Wise words as always so thank you. Unfortunately, I'm a reassurance junkie, always needing a fix from time to time. Tonight, my T calmed again as usual but my goodness, the panic a spike creates is overwhelming. I took a Valium and did some evening work that I thought I couldn't face tonight...
  35. UKJon

    Confession

    My God! I've just been cooking and it's louder than ever. What am I going to do????? I'm terrified.
  36. UKJon

    Confession

    I have tried to avoid writing this for a long time. The fact is that tinnitus has always had suicidal connotations for me. During 2015, I was battered by them for months every day especially after losing my mother in December 2014. I'm on medications and sleep very well with a sound system by...
  37. UKJon

    Is This a Relapse?

    Well I've had a terrible day today. The worst for a long time almost as if I was inviting it when I posted yesterday. I've been panicking all day and have had to cancel all my appointments. Had to get 4 Diazepam from the doctor and took one. After so many good days and hard work pushing myself...
  38. UKJon

    Is This a Relapse?

    Once again I'm reaching out through this forum for some support. Over the last few weeks, I was making real progress. Some of the components of my T had backed off and I was getting long periods of silence at times especially in the afternoon. Instead of my T becoming more noticeable at night...
  39. UKJon

    Thought I Was Getting Better.

    Thanks so much for all the positive vibes. I do appreciate them enormously.
  40. UKJon

    I Still Need Help and Advice

    Habituation for me would be as good as a cure really whether it comes and goes or not. I just want to NOT CARE anymore. That's all and yes, accept it as my 'new normal'. It's taking sooooo long although people with T much worse than mine eventually accept theirs. Will it happen?
  41. UKJon

    I Still Need Help and Advice

    No you're right I didn't think I'd get this far. It's just that I can't seem to finish the race. I thought it was going. It isn't, at least not enough for me after 16/17 months. It's still there saying 'this serves you right for thinking you were beating me. I haven't gone away you know and...
  42. UKJon

    I Still Need Help and Advice

    Hi all. I'm back again after a good spell. I need your support once more. Recently, I've been doing really well after last year's breakdown and T. The T had backed off a bit or I was habituating (or both). All that was left were two things. A temporary spike after being out which reduced again...
  43. UKJon

    Theatres/Performances/Laughing and Clapping People

    That's a very sad picture Gosia. I hope that's not you.
  44. UKJon

    Theatres/Performances/Laughing and Clapping People

    Hi Gosia, A few weeks ago, I went with a friend to Birmingham (UK) to listen to an American performer called Henry Rollins who tours with a one man spoken word show. I took my earplugs anyway and I'm glad I did because we were four rows from the front and there were some amplifiers stacked up...
  45. UKJon

    Dating and Intimacy

    Thank you all. I had a long spell of silence this afternoon while resting so that''s also positive.
  46. UKJon

    Dating and Intimacy

    Many thanks. I'm not actually dating now but I hope to be at my age (whilst everything still works). That's one reason why I'm getting out again more and meeting people after last year's breakdown. Unfortunately, I seem to get reactive spikes when I'm out which I hear when indoors again or in...
  47. UKJon

    Dating and Intimacy

    Dear people, How is it possible to put T away when you're dating? How can it not ruin dates, eating out (or in) or a sex life during a quiet time of intimacy when it's all you can hear?
  48. UKJon

    Why Today?

    Wise words as always. Many thanks.
  49. UKJon

    Why Today?

    Thank you.
  50. UKJon

    Why Today?

    Hello good people, It's been a while since I posted because I've been doing really well and my anxiety levels had dropped considerably. I've been out quite a bit and socializing again. I've been attending mindfulness classes and I even went to see Henry Rollins (if you know him) perform his...
  51. UKJon

    Barotrauma...

    Hi Steve. So sorry you're back on the site with fluid in the ears but I'm glad you had a good holiday. Do you really think that the flight home was to blame? I have not experienced fluid on the ears. What fluid is it and how does it get there?
  52. UKJon

    Yet Another Year Is Gone (Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, Happy Holidays...!)

    Hello all, This is just to wish all of you a great new year or at least a better one than 2015. By New Year's Eve 2016, there will be many more people with T and I hope that some of them will turn to this site for support as I did. A big thank you to all those who have helped me with so much...
  53. UKJon

    Ear Infection Spread...

    I do hope that you get to London and enjoy yourself. You'll be much missed whilst you're away.
  54. UKJon

    Chocolate and Salt

    Well it may have just been a random slight increase in my T and nothing to do with food intake. Impossible to say. I guess it's the old mantra as far as eating and drinking is concerned. 'Everything in moderation'.
  55. UKJon

    Chocolate and Salt

    Hi folks, I was out last night and ate two chocolate biscuits. After about an hour and a half when I was home again, my T seemed to have spiked. I later got hungry again and bought some chips with salt and vinegar. Today has been rough as my T seems to be a little louder and more noticeable...
  56. UKJon

    This Is Destroying Me

    Thanks Michael. My day wasn't as bad as I thought it might be and I had a good night with the masker on throughout. You mention using a radio in the kitchen. My T is not a problem in the kitchen but only really in the bedroom. Is it 'intrusive'? Well as far as the anxiety it has caused this year...
  57. UKJon

    This Is Destroying Me

    Yes I did wonder why it was worse in bed rather than anywhere else in the house including the bath. The bathroom is also quiet. Could it be neck tension or head angle or pressure at the back of the head or even psychosomatic? I don't know. I've always thought it was stress related. How can I...
  58. UKJon

    This Is Destroying Me

    Dear, kind people. Last night I had my bath and heard very little as usual in this quiet room. I then crossed into my very quiet bedroom which for some reason is where the worst of my T starts after a few minutes as I lie down. Why it comes on in this room and not in the bathroom is a mystery...
  59. UKJon

    This Is Destroying Me

    Hi people. Another terrible day for me. Absolutely awful. I haven't stopped panicking. Went to bed not too bad but I am still not doing what I've been advised to do. I have been advised to switch on my masker as soon as I'm in my bedroom rather than listen for T first in the quiet. I can't...
  60. UKJon

    Only 4 Days Deaf in One Ear, Cannot Cope with Tinnitus

    Hi Charron. I have T myself through stress. If I can recommend one person to learn coping strategies from on Youtube, it's Julian Cowan Hill. Just try him out. He has made dozens of videos covering all aspects of T and it won't cost a thing. Regards. Jonathan