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That was a whole wall of text, sorry lol but I want to be detailed with my experience so maybe you and others can find some peace of mind from it :) I know when I first got t and h I spent all my time scouring the internet/reddit looking for positive stories of improvement. They're what kept me...

However now as my LDLs have improved, I'm able to spend a little more time without hearing protection. So I'm hoping improvements will start being exponential from here on.

It may be coincidence but it seems like some of my improvements happened when I was able to spend consistent time in quiet environments without ear protection. I just can't be consistent with it bc there's always planes flying about. Plus everyone has different work schedules so I really only...

I had to wear double hearing protection 24/7 bc my LDLs were so low. Probably near 0 db at some point. Right now it's probably at around 60 db or so. It doesn't seem like yours are that low, so I would suggest finding a quiet place in your home where you can be without any protection.

I had terrible terrible reactivity. I still do. But it has improved. It just takes time. It seems like it may improve for you as well.

But now I can handle windy days well, I can even handle driving short distances despite all the road/wind noise.

I've even been able to do walks in light rain a few times without too much problem :) wind was also a problem initially too. Light breezes would cause severe spikes.

I tried sleeping in the bathroom downstairs (no windows, far from the roof), I put my car in the garage and slept in it, but nothing could stop it. I would spend the entirety of rainy days just wallowing in the worst 20/10 t you could imagine. S started creeping into my mind sometimes bc of...

OH MY GOD THE RAIN. The fucking rain. That was the one thing that would send me to the absolutely worst parts of hell. There was no way to avoid it.

I think going into silence may be a good idea. I wouldn't wear hearing protection 24/7 unless you absolutely need to. If you read @AnthonyMcDonald story, he had similar symptoms as you and I. He recommends time and silence for improvement. It sounds like he had it as bad as I did, but after 3...

I went from being able to do that for 20 mins to about 1.5 hrs before the T becomes unbearable. It's not worth it yet however, as it gives me setbacks so I haven't done it recently.

Now many of those things don't spike my t the way it used to. I can let the faucet run as I please, i can open plastic wrappers on my own, I fan flush the toilet etc. I still can't do artificial audio properly, but I've given in a few times and listened to music by leaving a speaker in one room...

For a while, no one in my home could watch TV w sound or vacuum bc even tho I couldn't hear it, I would get increased t from that. My mom had to come in and flush the toilet for me. My siblings would unwrap food for me bc I couldn't handle plastic wrappers. It was insane how easily I spiked...

I feel like reactivity may take longer to improve than H. Mine has improved tons; in the beginning everything spiked my T. I had to eat quiet foods, drink water in ways that avoided letting water slosh/splash in my mouth. When washing hands I had to let water drip onto my hands bc running water...

@Kiyomi The fact that you're having improvements already is a great sign! I think you'll hear this often in here but improvements are never linear. I've had improvements, then a plateau at that level, then improvements again months later. You're only a month in, it might be good for your mental...

I used to go to backyard shows when i was a teen. There was a band that always covered Evil Dead and Pull the Plug. The energy was always electrifying when they played those two songs. It was a garaunteed moshpit lol I can imagine how much better it would have been to hear Death play those live.

Musical genius forsure. Wish he hadn't passed so young, I felt he was just entering his songwriting prime. Every album was an improvement over the last. TSOP is already so damn good, to think he could've written something even better makes me sad. I was 5 when he passed.

I'm sending you hugs man. This sucks. I wish we didn't have to go through this.

That was the last time I was able to to go out in public bc by mid-late March I wasn't able to leave the house anymore. Little by little I worsened until I could hardly step out of the closet in my room. To make matters worse I live by an airport lmao Luckily i haven't had to use...

@Kiyomi I had a permanent t spike in late Jan last year. 2-3 weeks later loudness h begins and a week later reactive t as well. I wasn't fully homebound at first but severely restricted in what I could do. I had to quit my job but I was still able to move freely around the house and take some...

For reference, at my worst I had to sit or stand in one spot all day because everything would cause me to spike. My heart rate increasing, the sound of my footsteps, the floor squeaking, even the sound of my clothing. All sounded excruciatingly loud and would cause insane tinnitus spikes. This...

It ain't the same, but what I like to do is read lyrics and imagine the song in my head. Every now and then the stars will align and a chorus or melody I'm imagining will feel so real that it sends a wave of euphoria through my body. It may seem impossible now but eventually you will find ways...

I also love music. It was my safe space. Sometimes I would spend hours listening to music while being lost in a daydream. I love it so much, but the funny thing is that my love for music is part of what got me here.

My point with this is that you are going to need to put yourself first, and not let yourself feel pressured by friends/family to do things that you cannot safely do. Your real friends are going to understand, and those who don't aren't worth keeping in your life.

I ghosted my friends for half a year because it hurt seeing them live their lives while I 'rotted' away in a closet. When I finally contacted them to explain what happened, most chose to move on because of all my new limitations. It sucks but it is what it is. Only two chose to give me empathy...

Hey Kiyomi I'm so sorry you're going through this. I also have reactive t and h. The first few months are the worst, but there is a chance you may improve if you are careful with your sound exposure this early on. I worsened daily for 4 months before I stabilized and slowly started improving. I...