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  1. UKJon

    Tinnitus Back After I Thought It Had Gone

    How cruel it is when tinnitus returns after virtually disappearing for some months? I have been sleeping without my bedside sound system for some of January and most of February, March and April. Life had a meaning once more and I was ready to move on mentally. I've even been keeping a journal...
  2. UKJon

    Update After a Year

    Greetings. I have not posted here since March 2017. I had been battling (albeit) mild tinnitus after caring for my mother and the subsequent bereavement/breakdown. 3 years of hell which really started at the end of 2014. As I type this, my tinnitus is now at the point where I hardly use my...
  3. UKJon

    Is Tinnitus Becoming More Common?

    Is tinnitus becoming more common? Will it affect a whole new generation and are tinnitus victims getting younger? How many people do you know with tinnitus? Many pubs, bars, concerts and clubs still seem to operate on the basis that louder/loudest is best. And loud music goes directly into...
  4. UKJon

    Slight/Mild Tinnitus

    Hi folks, Does anyone here have slight to mild tinnitus? By that, I mean tinnitus that is only heard in a quiet environment that is easily masked. You may even have silence at times. In which case, does it cause you great anxiety and fear even though you may only here it at night or in bed and...
  5. UKJon

    Slipping Back

    Firstly, I do not want to be castigated or vilified on here simply because I have mild tinnitus. Not everyone is sympathetic even though this is a support forum. Suffering is suffering. Fear is fear. Depression is depression. I feel I'm slipping back after 2 years with tinnitus. I don't know...
  6. UKJon

    Making the Transition. Sleeping with Tinnitus.

    Hi! Some people have written in 'Success Stories' that they can now sleep without sound enrichment or even masking. Is this all about relaxing again or fully accepting tinnitus? I would like to reach that stage. How is this transition made? Do some people find one day that they just drop off...
  7. UKJon

    The Bigger Picture

    Imagine someone you love losing the use of their legs almost overnight and she goes to hospital with osteoporosis. Imagine that person collapsed outside your bedroom door at 2am in a pool of pee with two broken toes because she didn't get to the bathroom in time and no care package had been...
  8. UKJon

    If I Could Take a Pill

    Hi, The last time I wrote here, I had one or two people saying that I should be grateful for the fact that my tinnitus is mild. At the time, I agreed with them but right now, if I could take a pill and sleep forever then I would. The low humming that I hear in my bedroom or in the quiet has...
  9. UKJon

    Can't Do It

    Hi good folks, I have not posted for a few days but need to now. I have been doing quite well lately considering but I'm now stuck. My T is still only noticeable in very quiet or silent places. I've been practicing mindfulness for the last few days for around 10-20 mins each day and I can get...
  10. UKJon

    Taking a Break from Posting

    Hi folks. I have been spending far too many hours at my PC and my posture/neck is not good. I'm still not fully habituated to my T after nearly 1.5 years although it only really panics me in my very quiet bedroom now. I do hope that one day I really will get to the not caring stage. Many...
  11. UKJon

    Confession

    I have tried to avoid writing this for a long time. The fact is that tinnitus has always had suicidal connotations for me. During 2015, I was battered by them for months every day especially after losing my mother in December 2014. I'm on medications and sleep very well with a sound system by...
  12. UKJon

    Is This a Relapse?

    Once again I'm reaching out through this forum for some support. Over the last few weeks, I was making real progress. Some of the components of my T had backed off and I was getting long periods of silence at times especially in the afternoon. Instead of my T becoming more noticeable at night...
  13. UKJon

    I Still Need Help and Advice

    Hi all. I'm back again after a good spell. I need your support once more. Recently, I've been doing really well after last year's breakdown and T. The T had backed off a bit or I was habituating (or both). All that was left were two things. A temporary spike after being out which reduced again...
  14. UKJon

    Dating and Intimacy

    Dear people, How is it possible to put T away when you're dating? How can it not ruin dates, eating out (or in) or a sex life during a quiet time of intimacy when it's all you can hear?
  15. UKJon

    Why Today?

    Hello good people, It's been a while since I posted because I've been doing really well and my anxiety levels had dropped considerably. I've been out quite a bit and socializing again. I've been attending mindfulness classes and I even went to see Henry Rollins (if you know him) perform his...
  16. UKJon

    Chocolate and Salt

    Hi folks, I was out last night and ate two chocolate biscuits. After about an hour and a half when I was home again, my T seemed to have spiked. I later got hungry again and bought some chips with salt and vinegar. Today has been rough as my T seems to be a little louder and more noticeable...
  17. UKJon

    This Is Destroying Me

    Hi people. Another terrible day for me. Absolutely awful. I haven't stopped panicking. Went to bed not too bad but I am still not doing what I've been advised to do. I have been advised to switch on my masker as soon as I'm in my bedroom rather than listen for T first in the quiet. I can't...
  18. UKJon

    Sickening

    I've been looking at Youtube videos relating to Tinnitus and the striking thing is that so many have this condition judging from the comments. I do know that millions have T but it does bring it home when you read all the comments for people of all ages who have no axe to grind or 'remedy' to...
  19. UKJon

    Spike Terror After So Much Progress

    I'm in big trouble. Just got back from one of my social meetup groups which I enjoyed and my T is loudest it's ever been back indoors. I'm hyperventilating and really frightened again. All my dreams and goals are going away and I'm nearly in tears. It's getting worse after all my efforts...
  20. UKJon

    What's Gone Wrong?

    The last 4-5 days have been some of the best this year. I really felt that habituation was happening. My T just wasn't on my mind as much and I've begun to socialize again and put a few more things into my diary. It's still only really noticeable in quiet environments but it does wind up each...
  21. UKJon

    What Do I Have Now?

    Hi folks, I've had mild T for over a year now. Last night I went out for a social event (restaurant) for the first time in years. I have not been able to get out for some time due to being a carer and my own subsequent illness following bereavement. Naturally, I was apprehensive but I had a...
  22. UKJon

    Tearful on My Birthday

    I'm 53 today. What am I doing? Panicking and crying. I really thought things were improving. I really thought I was getting used to some things like going out, working part time, socializing etc. Lately, at night, I've been able to sleep without masking and been having some silent spells when...
  23. UKJon

    Thought I Was Getting Better.

    I really thought I was getting better. Lately, I've actually been getting some silent spells at times whilst relaxing and deep breathing especially just before lights out. Now I am panicking again. Although some of the original sound/s have receded, I'm now conscious of my T being more...
  24. UKJon

    UKJon 2nd Update

    Hi folks, Well, here I still am. The good news is 25 consecutive days without my masker and just the meds. The bad news is that I woke at 2.43 am and 5.33 am this morning panicking because of a spike and a new noise. So my masker went on. The good news is that it was gone this morning and back...
  25. UKJon

    UKJon Update

    Hi folks, Thanks again to all of those who replied to my last post. I had a couple of good days but a bad one yesterday when I went to see the audiologist. Woke with another spike didn't I. My audiologist and I agreed that I would try and allocate several times a day for relaxation and deep...
  26. UKJon

    I'm Losing the Fight

    I'm losing the fight folks. I'm doing everything I can and Glynis, Xynic and Billie48 have been especially supportive but I'm really struggling. Woke this morning and the T was not nice. I sleep well due to medication. I have a masker which I use. I've had some good days recently but I feel...
  27. UKJon

    Bad Day. Tears Are Back.

    Hi folks, Having a bad day once more. Still haven't come to terms with T and still struggling with anxiety. Took a Valium but it didn't last long, about 45 mins whilst I tried to rest. I'm still trying to battle rather than accept. This is so hard to do (although I've done well lately compared...
  28. UKJon

    Terror, Spike, Panic

    Hi folks, If you've read my previous posts, you'll know my T is mild and I've been making real progress lately as my anxiety has been very difficult to deal with. I've been doing a lot more and getting some normality back after this year's breakdown. This afternoon however, after a good day, I...
  29. UKJon

    Disappointed

    Hi good people, Just wanted to give you an update as I had a bad evening. Recently, I've been doing really well with the anti depressants I've been on. I've slept for the last seven nights without my masker on but I'll stay on the meds for the foreseeable future. I've been out and about much...
  30. UKJon

    Feeling Better But Still Not There

    Hi all, A few weeks back I was in deep s--t. Following a bereavement and the return of T together with breakdown. I have had some much better days lately and have been doing more at home and outside including some socialising, shopping, travelling again on buses, gardening and watching films on...
  31. UKJon

    Panicking Again Today

    Hi everyone, Yes I'm panicking again today. I have mild T and sometimes it's only even slight. But I'm SUCH a worrygut and get myself into such a state still. I only really hear T in the quiet and yet I'm still carrying so much stress which of course makes things worse and makes me worry that...
  32. UKJon

    Hyperventilating

    Hi folks, As I write this, I am hyperventilating again. I have a history of anxiety/nervous illness and am currently in my third breakdown. My dear Mother passed away on Dec 17th 2014 after I (and others) had been caring for her at home since 2011. It was a terrible experience seeing her...