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  1. Barry098

    Bring on the pain!

    Bring on the pain!
  2. Barry098

    My tinnitus has been on a roller coaster ride recently… it was almost nonexistent for a lot of...

    My tinnitus has been on a roller coaster ride recently… it was almost nonexistent for a lot of the day. It’s cranking now though!
  3. Barry098

    Considering Legal Action After Store Alarm Caused My Tinnitus to Get Worse

    Taking legal action could not hurt. At the very least, it could raise awareness about the fact that many of us are suffering from this issue. While you are at it, consider addressing Trader Joe’s bell ringing as well. It is completely unnecessary, and they often do it right next to children...
  4. Barry098

    @lukex26 as far as de-stigmatizing goes. I find that sharing my experience with others allows...

    @lukex26 as far as de-stigmatizing goes. I find that sharing my experience with others allows them to open up about their own experience with tinnitus. You will discover that there are very few people who are unaffected by it. My own tinnitus issues are on the extreme side of the spectrum but...
  5. Barry098

    @lukex26 I would certainly take it though if I experienced significant sudden hearing loss. My...

    @lukex26 I would certainly take it though if I experienced significant sudden hearing loss. My brother lost hearing in one ear and Prednisone saved him and restored most of his hearing in that ear.
  6. Barry098

    @lukex26 I haven't found Prednisone to be helpful for treating tinnitus. Theoretically it helps...

    @lukex26 I haven't found Prednisone to be helpful for treating tinnitus. Theoretically it helps protect your ears against the inflammation that your body creates post injury, but I have found that it actually tends to make my ears ring louder when I am on it.
  7. Barry098

    @Juliane Agree…there is no real reference or baseline to measure against. Each new experience...

    @Juliane Agree…there is no real reference or baseline to measure against. Each new experience brings about a whole different set of variables.
  8. Barry098

    @Juliane I love that attitude! So many people with T, avoid talking about it because of the...

    @Juliane I love that attitude! So many people with T, avoid talking about it because of the perceived stigma. But, I wear it on my shirt sleeve and constantly talk about my struggles with it. Maybe one day when it becomes so obvious that this problem affects everybody on the planet (either...
  9. Barry098

    De-stigmatizing T takes a lot of its destructive power away. I think it’s an essential part of...

    De-stigmatizing T takes a lot of its destructive power away. I think it’s an essential part of the habituation process.
  10. Barry098

    Ears are really loud tonight but the sound is not actually unpleasant…just sounds like TV...

    Ears are really loud tonight but the sound is not actually unpleasant…just sounds like TV static…this is a new one for me
  11. Barry098

    Right…I have to plan out all activities like a military campaign to avoid injury

    Right…I have to plan out all activities like a military campaign to avoid injury
  12. Barry098

    Not sure…might have just been luck…and being utterly exhausted

    Not sure…might have just been luck…and being utterly exhausted
  13. Barry098

    8 years now

    8 years now
  14. Barry098

    I think I am starting to understand the transformative power of tinnitus. It demands the...

    I think I am starting to understand the transformative power of tinnitus. It demands the deepest level of submission to and acceptance of what is vs. what could be.
  15. Barry098

    Good night's sleep last night...that was my first since re-injuring my ears almost 2 weeks ago.

    Good night's sleep last night...that was my first since re-injuring my ears almost 2 weeks ago.
  16. Barry098

    Woah…not gonna sugar coat it…today was brutal yet there was also a really beautiful moment…what...

    Woah…not gonna sugar coat it…today was brutal yet there was also a really beautiful moment…what a bizarre experience it is to be human!
  17. Barry098

    Took 20 mgs of prednisone this morning...subsequently having a brutal morning...feels kind of...

    Took 20 mgs of prednisone this morning...subsequently having a brutal morning...feels kind of like having terminal cancer at the moment except that unfortunately there is no end in sight!
  18. Barry098

    Sometimes I wonder if T occurs to slow life down.

    Sometimes I wonder if T occurs to slow life down.
  19. Barry098

    Propranolol is really helping me cope BTW. Seems like it should be a first line of defense for...

    Propranolol is really helping me cope BTW. Seems like it should be a first line of defense for new tinnitus sufferers.
  20. Barry098

    I want to try and do this tinnitus experience differently…going to try and keep my focus on...

    I want to try and do this tinnitus experience differently…going to try and keep my focus on acceptance.
  21. Barry098

    I was in a pretty bad place last night with nausea and uncontrollable shaking, but the...

    I was in a pretty bad place last night with nausea and uncontrollable shaking, but the propranolol stopped the bodily response to the anxiety and allowed me to get some distance from the situation. Today was hard but bearable. I can do days like today...but I can't handle too many more full...
  22. Barry098

    @LukeYoung - Somehow, the anxiety gets worse each time I have an acoustic injury. I think I...

    @LukeYoung - Somehow, the anxiety gets worse each time I have an acoustic injury. I think I have a lot of unprocessed PTSD that instantly overwhelms my body when I realize I have been injured yet again.
  23. Barry098

    Interesting that I’ve been through this so many times and yet each time is still so traumatic...

    Interesting that I’ve been through this so many times and yet each time is still so traumatic. I’m not a very good student apparently…lol
  24. Barry098

    Hang in there @L along the way I totally hear you, but the truth is that you will eventually get...

    Hang in there @L along the way I totally hear you, but the truth is that you will eventually get better. You just have to wait it out. I have dealt with T for 8 years now and each onset is the same cycle. The trick is surviving the first year or so…after that it always gets easier.
  25. Barry098

    Theoretically, it will give me the ability to be present with the tinnitus without constantly...

    Theoretically, it will give me the ability to be present with the tinnitus without constantly panicking which might just create the environment to begin the habituation process once again. I am going to keep taking propranolol and I will report back how it goes.
  26. Barry098

    The more I think about it, the more I think Propranolol might be the perfect habituation drug...

    The more I think about it, the more I think Propranolol might be the perfect habituation drug for tinnitus. Unlike alcohol or benzodiazepines it doesn't mask the sensation of the tinnitus but it does keep the body from physiologically responding in a fight or flight mode.
  27. Barry098

    Thought I was headed for a stroke or heart attack today when my BP hit 154/106 ( and that was...

    Thought I was headed for a stroke or heart attack today when my BP hit 154/106 ( and that was after my “relaxing” bath). So I took an 80mg slow release Propranolol and that chilled me out enough to be able function again. Just wanted to share for those of you suffering panic attacks due to the...
  28. Barry098

    This is absolutely brutal…time is not my friend right now

    This is absolutely brutal…time is not my friend right now
  29. Barry098

    Not sure I can do this all over again…it is beginning to feel pretty pointless…

    Not sure I can do this all over again…it is beginning to feel pretty pointless…
  30. Barry098

    Mine was super severe right from the initial onset 8 years ago…but I was pretty naive and very...

    Mine was super severe right from the initial onset 8 years ago…but I was pretty naive and very optimistic about life so I survived it…now I have real issues with PTSD and these kind of accidents throw me right back into the abyss
  31. Barry098

    Well, the next 2+ years are going to suck. I feel like a convict who keeps getting more time...

    Well, the next 2+ years are going to suck. I feel like a convict who keeps getting more time added to his sentence.
  32. Barry098

    Thank God for the many years of experience living with debilitating tinnitus…I'd be in real...

    Thank God for the many years of experience living with debilitating tinnitus…I'd be in real trouble right now if this was a new problem for me!
  33. Barry098

    100 years from now (when tinnitus will be cured with some over-the-counter med) people will look...

    100 years from now (when tinnitus will be cured with some over-the-counter med) people will look back and wonder how people could ever manage to live with T during our era.
  34. Barry098

    Starting the T recovery journey once again. It never feels easy.

    Starting the T recovery journey once again. It never feels easy.
  35. Barry098

    Was doing really great the last six months or so. Just had somebody scream in my ear (full...

    Was doing really great the last six months or so. Just had somebody scream in my ear (full volume) over the weekend. So my ears are ringing pretty loud again. Pretty frustrating to have this condition.
  36. Barry098

    Positive development…T is still really darn loud, and I just don’t give a fuck. Normally I...

    Positive development…T is still really darn loud, and I just don’t give a fuck. Normally I would be crawling out of my skin at this volume…
  37. Barry098

    @4Grace I constantly ask myself, is it better to drop the things I love doing or do them and...

    @4Grace I constantly ask myself, is it better to drop the things I love doing or do them and suffer for it?
  38. Barry098

    Just trying to live life…but as much as I try to avoid to them loud things keep getting me!

    Just trying to live life…but as much as I try to avoid to them loud things keep getting me!
  39. Barry098

    Had an unusually low T month but then my ears were blasted this past Wednesday and I’m right...

    Had an unusually low T month but then my ears were blasted this past Wednesday and I’m right back in T-hell.
  40. Barry098

    @4Grace you are in good company. I can’t protect from noise either. My T fades with time and...

    @4Grace you are in good company. I can’t protect from noise either. My T fades with time and then I get complacent and mess myself up again…endless loop :(
  41. Barry098

    @MindOverMatter I think T is a nervous system problem and I only experience the pins and needles...

    @MindOverMatter I think T is a nervous system problem and I only experience the pins and needles feeling in my legs when my T is screaming at me. Seems connected but maybe not.
  42. Barry098

    Anyone else experiencing tremulous legs + pins and needles throughout lower body while trying to...

    Anyone else experiencing tremulous legs + pins and needles throughout lower body while trying to sleep…maybe it’s not even connected to T?
  43. Barry098

    T calms down after a shower and coffee. The T itself doesn’t really bother me so much. But it...

    T calms down after a shower and coffee. The T itself doesn’t really bother me so much. But it feels like the symptom of a medical condition.
  44. Barry098

    Very low T…Every once in awhile I think I can hear silence but then when I listen hard I realize...

    Very low T…Every once in awhile I think I can hear silence but then when I listen hard I realize my ears are always ringing. For me that’s as good as silence though!
  45. Barry098

    Woke again with tremulous legs and noticeably louder T. Not sure why this is occurring every...

    Woke again with tremulous legs and noticeably louder T. Not sure why this is occurring every morning. Seems like I’m sleeping ok…
  46. Barry098

    T was el screamo on Friday but decided to take the weekend off. What a wonderful feeling! I...

    T was el screamo on Friday but decided to take the weekend off. What a wonderful feeling! I just wish it could last…
  47. Barry098

    Tinnitus is so tiring. Hard to truly understand the meaning of 24/7 until you live it!

    Tinnitus is so tiring. Hard to truly understand the meaning of 24/7 until you live it!
  48. Barry098

    Human capacity for adaptation is astonishing. As loud as my ears are ringing, it somehow just...

    Human capacity for adaptation is astonishing. As loud as my ears are ringing, it somehow just feels normal again!
  49. Barry098

    @BrOKeN_1 and @Jammer lol

    @BrOKeN_1 and @Jammer lol
  50. Barry098

    T is back screaming at me today. Maybe my T is aggravated by the start the work week!

    T is back screaming at me today. Maybe my T is aggravated by the start the work week!
  51. Barry098

    I wonder if there’s a connection between antihistamines and decreased tinnitus.

    I wonder if there’s a connection between antihistamines and decreased tinnitus.
  52. Barry098

    T was pretty mellow today, probably 2 or 3 out of 10. I spent most of the day avoiding...

    T was pretty mellow today, probably 2 or 3 out of 10. I spent most of the day avoiding situations that would antagonize it…
  53. Barry098

    Ah…nothing like that T alarm bell first thing in the morning that grabs you by the throat and...

    Ah…nothing like that T alarm bell first thing in the morning that grabs you by the throat and shouts “wake the F up!”
  54. Barry098

    I’ve had long periods of horrific. I’ll definitely take any breaks in can get at this point!

    I’ve had long periods of horrific. I’ll definitely take any breaks in can get at this point!
  55. Barry098

    @L along the way All great advice. I especially like what you said about shifting from the...

    @L along the way All great advice. I especially like what you said about shifting from the head to the body. This is very true for me as well. And day by day is great but often times it’s step by step for me. Just depends on how intense things get. I appreciate your thoughts thanks for...
  56. Barry098

    Seriously wonder how many years this condition has taken off our lives collectively…I bet when...

    Seriously wonder how many years this condition has taken off our lives collectively…I bet when added up, T is in competition with cancer.
  57. Barry098

    T calmed down this evening to a livable level. I hope the torturer didn’t just leave the room...

    T calmed down this evening to a livable level. I hope the torturer didn’t just leave the room temporarily to go sharpen some more tools!
  58. Barry098

    @L along the way that is a very good observation. I reached the place of true acceptance...

    @L along the way that is a very good observation. I reached the place of true acceptance several times now and it is more of a peaceful whole body experience. My current state is probably better described as desperate submission.
  59. Barry098

    Feeling some chest pain recently...I think that's a good sign that my problems with tinnitus...

    Feeling some chest pain recently...I think that's a good sign that my problems with tinnitus might be resolved in the near future...right?
  60. Barry098

    So sorry to hear...that is really rough on top of having bad tinnitus...

    So sorry to hear...that is really rough on top of having bad tinnitus...