T just can't let you have a Lil fun. I'm having new tires put on the motorcycle Tuesday and wr will see what a bad idea that is. Haha. The weather is nicer and I hate having the bike rot away in a corner of the garage.
Definitely "Raaaaaaaaaagh".
I never know how to congratulate someone on these big occasions. So lest just go with FUCK TINNITUS!
But seriously. Hope your coping reasonably well. Big Hugs!
I always wonder how musicians such as Ozzy Osbourne, Eric Clapton, Chris Martin, Neil Young, Phil Collins and I'm sure a few others continue to have successful careers in the industry while also dealing with this condition. At what point do you start not giving a f**k?
One of favorite quotes. Living with chronic unilateral tinnitus is not easy or fun. It can be very difficult to steer your thoughts from depression and suicidal ideation. Not impossible, but extremely difficult. I hope you have some good days soon.
This is good to know. I’ve been considering trying bone conduction headphones for a while now but never went through with it.
You definitely put that idea to rest for me.
Sorry to hear you’re dealing with this.
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Thank you for your hopeful comments. Not having a lick of silence since 2020 has been hell. At times I'll feel like I've got this condition managed nicely and then one of these awful spikes can leave you wanting to just throw in the towel. Something has to give. I...
This current spike is gradually and expertly eroding the layers of psychological defense I built over the last few years. Tinnitus is just Evil. Plain and Simple.
"You Just Do".. I couldn't say it better myself. God knows how we can manage to keep it together with tinnitus that makes onset look laughable. I can only attribute this to time served.. hope your day finds you distracted in more pleasurable activities. :)
*knock on wood* having alot of good days lately. Pain and noise tolerance is up. Anxiety and depression are at a low ebb. T is still loud and all encompassing but doesn't seem to be in the driver's seat for now. Wishing everyone here better days.
Sorry to hear your still homebound my friend. But glad to hear you have gotten a break from the pain. Small improvements are better then none I suppose. Be well.
Feeling Raw today. Failure to distract or mask on all levels. Just a spike... just a spike. Hope all my friends here are coping well enough. Much Love!
Curious how you gauge it as less intrusive even though it has worsened? When my T worsened and became unmaskable it became incredibly intrusive yet I became subjectively less emotionally reactive.
Seems cliche af. But Mondays are always hell on my tinnitus. It's definitely my work schedule adjusting back to graveyard shift after the weekend I assume. But dammit it's like slowely acclimating all week just to go back to square one. *sigh*
@cjbhab That has been my experience as well. Short of a miracle or maybe just some dumb luck. Gradual worsening seem like the natural trajectory of my T.
I'm glad you are taking control of what you can control. Its tough working a full time job while juggling this nasty problem. Kinda wish I had that option. Best of luck.
Same here. The noise is in my ears and head. Isolation seems to heighten my awareness of it. However, I imagine those with hyperacusis or noise sensitivity may have an entirely different experience.
@2049v Believe it or not you can habituate to even our level. Ideation is extremely common. I use a low dose Prozac to keep my mental health in check. Other then that you just deal with it one day at a time. I can pretty much do what I want now although I avoid venues I know will be loud.
@2049v I totally get that. Considering where you are in your journey. 4 months in with no Sleep and my wife was looking to have me committed. It's hard to say what will happen should you stay in the fight. But I've been here long enough to see major improvements in most people. And others...
What sparked your interest in retiring to Ireland from the United States? Had you been there before? I ask because I've always wanted to visit Europe, but I haven't yet crossed the ocean. I hope you're having a blessed day.
Yep.. same here. Probably why the T has gotten gradually louder and more intrusive over the years. I don't have the luxury of just hiding out. Not sure that would even work for me. Stay strong girl.
My Harley Sportster hasn't left the garage in almost two years, and it's starting to get to me. I really want to ride. Lately, I have seriously considered selling the bike and looking into something electric. I know it's not the same, but maybe I can still get that open-road feeling.
@4Grace agreed. At this point all I really want for you brother in that tldamn pain to go away. Tinnitus is hard enough to cope with by itself. Much Love. Keep fighting my man. Give it all you got.
@kingsfan yea.. its pretty much impossible to mask unless I'm cranking shit up over 80dbs and that doesn't seem reasonable. The only saving grace I have at this point is no hyperacusis or physical pain.
It sounds like you're intentionally putting yourself in an environment that's not exactly easy on the ears. I suggest you avoid engaging in those activities again without proper hearing protection. Hopefully, with time and a bit of luck, your symptoms will improve. Best of luck!
My Aids literally just became really expensive head phones that may or may not be safe to use. I do like having the white noise option always available.