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I can 100% understand everything you write. I feel the same way. You say you're not afraid of death; that may be true. But believe me, from the moment these words become convincing thoughts and then the first “preparatory actions,” this pain is unbearable. I hope you don't get to this point and...

Perhaps because, according to the information in your profile, you have "only" been suffering from tinnitus for seven months. I must say that Pegasos not accepting you scares me a lot, as this last "option" calmed me in a way. I think Dignitas is a very long process.

It's nice to hear from you again. Let's fight this battle together with this strong community here.

How do you know that?

As someone with fluctuating tinnitus, I can speak for both perspectives. On mild days, I'm fine and have hope, but on loud days, I automatically feel despair and have thoughts of "escape". So I can clearly refute that it's not the way of dealing with tinnitus that's the problem and that I'm not...

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I see it differently. I was happy before this crap started. How are we born? Children are inherently happy at their core. They laugh, marvel, play and feel the beauty of life. And how do many people end their lives? They look back on everything they have experienced and achieved, a good career...

In my opinion, it won't. The price for leaving life with all its sensations, such as joy, suffering, etc., will be all-encompassing nothingness. This thought can help you persevere because, in all the suffering, there are always at least some neutral or even positive moments; otherwise, you...

You describe exactly what I have. For me, it's pretty much a 3-day cycle that has repeated since it started a year ago and hasn't changed. On the first day, it is a pretty loud electrical hissing (snake pit) with a very fast oscillation. It's like I can literally hear the hyperactive neurons...

First of all, I'm almost embarrassed to appear so tearful. A few days ago, I was still encouraging @gameover, but now I'm down again myself. It's complicated: On the one hand, you have a responsibility to the other fellow sufferers here not to fuel their hopelessness too much with depressing...

I want inner peace. I want eternal peace. I want to go. Please God, let me fall asleep and never wake up again.

Short update: I think I've gotten an initial idea of what habituation might feel like in the last few days. The noise was effectively unchanged, but I was less overwhelmed by it. Hence, it felt quieter somehow - not the ultimate relief, but "okayish". I hope it continues like this. Keep up the...

I have had good (nearly silent) days since the onset, so I'm not sure what this has to do with the timeframe of 8 months. Currently, it is changing a lot (2 good days - 2 bad ones - repeat). I can't pinpoint any specific causes. I'm just so tired of it.

I just can't understand how f*king stupid this brain is - creating sounds to torture itself. Yesterday was a quiet day and I could live a little, but today my primitive brain is electrocuting itself. This is so senseless and cruel at the same time. Suffering beyond imagination. In a few days I...

Yes, the feeling is brutal that you now receive benevolent sympathy when you were previously a self-directed doer whose help many have sought. That is also the strange irony: I was always the one who helped many. Now that I need help involuntarily, no one can really help me except pats on the...

Thanks for sharing your experience and especially for the hope that it can get better with time. At the moment I need every little motivation not to give up. Now, after 8 months, I am currently at a very critical point. In the beginning, there was hope it would subside, so I kind of kept...

After 2 good days, today was another damn bad one that made me immediately despair again. I do not know how I will ever get used to it. Good days mean wanting to live, bad ones mean wanting to die - what a bizarre "life". I can hardly think of another impairment that traumatizes you so deeply...

On 1 to 2 days per week I can experience what silence sounds like. That is due to my ever repeating pattern (loud day - moderate day - moderate day - quiet/silent day). On the one hand, I am thankful for having those days, but, on the other hand, it is horrible to ever again experience the...

Hello @ErikaS. Thank you very much for your sympathy. You are right, by the fact that the noise is not static, but oscillates (SsSSsssSSSssShhhSSShhSShh), I can also "feel" it. It is virtually impossible to ignore. It sounds similar to this video, but just unfortunately additionally...

Hello all fellow sufferers, this is my story. I'll try to keep it short: February 2023: I was sitting in a coffee shop and suddenly noticed that everything seemed unusually loud. In the days that followed, my left ear somehow felt slightly clogged. I thought it was due to earwax and ignored it...

Correct. As I said, I don't want to hijack this thread and should create my own one. It's just that I can relate to a lot of thoughts and feelings of @gameover. That's why I barged in here.

Five years... Five years in which the people around me move on and I remain trapped like a prisoner in my small radius of life. Truly a nightmare.

I am deeply shocked by @Merlin L's death. It has now been 8 months since the onset of my tinnitus and hyperacusis. I have often thought about suicide and in my desperation I even contacted Pegasos. Tinnitus is so unreal. I have never felt so terrible and I have never been so stunned by how...