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  1. sword&shield

    The more intense the light, the farthest the darkness

    The more intense the light, the farthest the darkness
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    Is my life even worth living anymore?

    Life is always worth living, no matter what condition may afflict it. I perfectly understand your pain since I'm a Tinnitus sufferer too and it made me reflect and sometimes tackle negative ideas as well. But life itself is the realm of possibilities, the very space where hope can constantly...
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    Kinda in a Panic Now. Need Some Calming Words. :(

    Just try to stay calm: as others have said, stress and anxiety only serve to fuel up the intensity of the symptom. Try to relax perhaps by using masking sounds or dedicating yourself to a completely different activity or distraction. It's very likely you're just having a temporary volume spike...
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    Almost a year later... I need advice

    Thanks for all the very reassuring, informative and especially kind messages, in particular to Erik whose post I really appreciated. Just by reading such lines of advice, it's easier to keep a calm and collected attitude and bravely tolerate any buzzing and any noise. I still have my doubts as...
  5. sword&shield

    戦わなくてはだめ!

    戦わなくてはだめ!
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    Almost a year later... I need advice

    Thanks for all the kind messages. Hearing others' experience, especially how everybody in his own personal endeavours is actively trying to fight back this obnoxious noise, is incredibly helpful to me. I *am* trying to keep pursuing my usual interests, especially composition and everything that...
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    Almost a year later... I need advice

    It's been almost a full year since my tinnitus appeared, inexplicably and suddenly. At first faint and localized to my left ear in the form of a costant buzzing, then gradually stronger and extended to both ears, it has managed to disrupt many things. I loved silence because of my musical...
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    I'm feeling terribly sad right now. Would so love to go back in time and be free from this noise.

    I'm feeling terribly sad right now. Would so love to go back in time and be free from this noise.
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    How to keep composing and enjoying music?

    In about 2-3 days I'll be leaving for Germany, in order to attend a symphonic concert I've been eagerly looking forward to, for quite a long time. It's supposed to be a very intense and captivating experience for me, both as a (very amateur) composer and as an enthusiast of this genre, this...
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    No Music for a While — I Have Tinnitus :(

    I've been having tinnitus just for a few months but it's enough to understand precisely what it entails for any musician: feeling almost betrayed by the sound, utterly frightened at the prospect of worsening the symptoms by simply pursuing that musical inspiration we've always enjoyed. That...
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    If You Were Going to Write a Book About Your Experience with Tinnitus...

    "The inner noise". Simplicistic perhaps, but very effective in conveying what I think of it. An undesired sound (not music, just noise) that is conjured from within.
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    Hi to everyone

    Thank you all for the very kind words of encouragement and support. It really means a lot to receive such empathy for an issue that others can't perceive and most often misunderstand. Undeniably my symptoms are very moderate, but still it's something that frightens me due to the many reasons I...
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    Hi to everyone

    I feel really lost right now. I've got flu with a bad cold right now and it seems to amplify my tinnitus in both ears. What a bad day.
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    :(

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  15. sword&shield

    Hi to everyone

    Hello to everyone. I'm glad I found this place because, despite my initial reluctance and fear of overthinking about the whole matter, I felt I ultimately needed some support from people who can likely understand what this all entails. My backstory is relatively simple and, at the same time, I...