It all began 3 years ago today. I had been using Ambien intermittently for several years and was having some huge stressors at work. The Ambien stopped working and my insomnia peaked.
I raised my hand for help with my local GP and he Rxd Wellbutrin. Why he chose to give a stressed out anxious insomniac that drug remains a mystery. I took that dose at 8AM three years ago today. At exactly 10:32 AM IT started.
IT was tinnitus. What the fuck was all I could think. Dr said its a start up sx and will pass. It didn't. It has altered my life forever and started the path down psych mess. 11 days later I went to ER with globus hysteria, an anxiety attack where you can't swallow. My first ever trip to an ER. The ER Dr took the Wellbutrin and shit canned it on the spot and called to inform my GP that he was an idiot. IT got worse. ENTs found nothing wrong, It took 2 months to be seen by a Pdoc and counselor.
Xanax was Rx'd on Christmas Day 2012. I was scared of it and despite pressure from the Drs used it soaringly. I think I still have some of that original Rx. We started with Effexor. I was dizzy and puking within hours. Next up was Cymbalta. I suffered that terror for 12 weeks and switched to Pristiq. They Rxd Trazodone, more Ambien, propranolol, Gabapentin and Buspar. I was drugged enough to sleep. Eventually we did Lexapro, Celexa and I finally crashed from the drugs in Apr 2014. My Pdoc Rx'd Xanax XR 1.5mg only and the neurological deficits and the denial of and sx's from the benzo began immediately.
Now here I am 3 years later to the day. My left ear is still ringing intermittently but worse now in the final stages of Valium taper. Things have come full circle, my career is over, I am bedridden in horrible benzo pain and feel my life is nearly over, IT is winning. Insomnia still here but on an epic scale. Went all the way to Mayo Clinic and told I have myofascial pain syndrome and learn to cope with I it. So sad and depressed today that if not for my wife and son I would choose to end it all.
I raised my hand for help with my local GP and he Rxd Wellbutrin. Why he chose to give a stressed out anxious insomniac that drug remains a mystery. I took that dose at 8AM three years ago today. At exactly 10:32 AM IT started.
IT was tinnitus. What the fuck was all I could think. Dr said its a start up sx and will pass. It didn't. It has altered my life forever and started the path down psych mess. 11 days later I went to ER with globus hysteria, an anxiety attack where you can't swallow. My first ever trip to an ER. The ER Dr took the Wellbutrin and shit canned it on the spot and called to inform my GP that he was an idiot. IT got worse. ENTs found nothing wrong, It took 2 months to be seen by a Pdoc and counselor.
Xanax was Rx'd on Christmas Day 2012. I was scared of it and despite pressure from the Drs used it soaringly. I think I still have some of that original Rx. We started with Effexor. I was dizzy and puking within hours. Next up was Cymbalta. I suffered that terror for 12 weeks and switched to Pristiq. They Rxd Trazodone, more Ambien, propranolol, Gabapentin and Buspar. I was drugged enough to sleep. Eventually we did Lexapro, Celexa and I finally crashed from the drugs in Apr 2014. My Pdoc Rx'd Xanax XR 1.5mg only and the neurological deficits and the denial of and sx's from the benzo began immediately.
Now here I am 3 years later to the day. My left ear is still ringing intermittently but worse now in the final stages of Valium taper. Things have come full circle, my career is over, I am bedridden in horrible benzo pain and feel my life is nearly over, IT is winning. Insomnia still here but on an epic scale. Went all the way to Mayo Clinic and told I have myofascial pain syndrome and learn to cope with I it. So sad and depressed today that if not for my wife and son I would choose to end it all.
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