Hi,
i have a strange problem about Hyperacusis and Tinnitus. I feel so scared when it comes to live... a normal life.
My problem is that i know that i shouldn't wear earplugs all the time because it can develop worse Hyperacusis than i already have (mostly to high pitched sounds, low and mid range frequencies are somewhat fine) but i don't know where is that noise level when you have to wear them. I try not to use them when i walk through the city or when i'm in a car, or at the doctor etc.
I try to only use them during the school breaks or when i'm taking a tram (there are mostly only noisy ones from '80 and '90 in my city)
But i feel so scared when i get home, because "What if sound X was too loud and maybe my Tinnitus now is worse than before?", "What if it affect/affected my Tinnitus?" "What have i done maybe i should wore earplugs back then?". That everyday anxiety and stress really, DESTROYS ME. I can't focus at anything creative, because when i have to think on something i immediately think about Tinnitus. Because that anxiety T naturally gets worse by itself, we all know that. And then i starting to hear something new and anxiety level goes up even higher.
Example from today, i was at the hospital clinic for 4 hours with and without earplugs (i changed them several times) because i CAN'T tell if i have to wear them at the moment or no when there's no high pitched sounds around me that easily annoys me. I think that i hear low and mid range frequencies like anyone else, but i have high anxiety and fear that i can get my Tinnitus worse by one stupid mistake.
Today also one man shut the door near me (that was pretty loud, everyone was annoyed by that) and i didn't heared any loud high pitched sound or something similar like in acoustic traumas when it happend, but right now i'm scared and checking my ears for some Tinnitus change.
After that i was also in the hospital registration with dozens of people and there was somewhat loud out there. I also wore earplugs after a few minutes because i wasn't sure if that loud level was safe or not.
I can't remember my Tinnitus from yesterday, 2 days ago etc. becuase it's dynamic so i can't compare it.
How to stop that vicious circle and start... a normal life?
@Michael Leigh Sorry for disturbing you, but i know that you have experience in that field and you could help me with it.
i have a strange problem about Hyperacusis and Tinnitus. I feel so scared when it comes to live... a normal life.
My problem is that i know that i shouldn't wear earplugs all the time because it can develop worse Hyperacusis than i already have (mostly to high pitched sounds, low and mid range frequencies are somewhat fine) but i don't know where is that noise level when you have to wear them. I try not to use them when i walk through the city or when i'm in a car, or at the doctor etc.
I try to only use them during the school breaks or when i'm taking a tram (there are mostly only noisy ones from '80 and '90 in my city)
But i feel so scared when i get home, because "What if sound X was too loud and maybe my Tinnitus now is worse than before?", "What if it affect/affected my Tinnitus?" "What have i done maybe i should wore earplugs back then?". That everyday anxiety and stress really, DESTROYS ME. I can't focus at anything creative, because when i have to think on something i immediately think about Tinnitus. Because that anxiety T naturally gets worse by itself, we all know that. And then i starting to hear something new and anxiety level goes up even higher.
Example from today, i was at the hospital clinic for 4 hours with and without earplugs (i changed them several times) because i CAN'T tell if i have to wear them at the moment or no when there's no high pitched sounds around me that easily annoys me. I think that i hear low and mid range frequencies like anyone else, but i have high anxiety and fear that i can get my Tinnitus worse by one stupid mistake.
Today also one man shut the door near me (that was pretty loud, everyone was annoyed by that) and i didn't heared any loud high pitched sound or something similar like in acoustic traumas when it happend, but right now i'm scared and checking my ears for some Tinnitus change.
After that i was also in the hospital registration with dozens of people and there was somewhat loud out there. I also wore earplugs after a few minutes because i wasn't sure if that loud level was safe or not.
I can't remember my Tinnitus from yesterday, 2 days ago etc. becuase it's dynamic so i can't compare it.
How to stop that vicious circle and start... a normal life?
@Michael Leigh Sorry for disturbing you, but i know that you have experience in that field and you could help me with it.