Member- Oct 2, 2017
- 419
- Tinnitus Since
- 09/2017
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Years of excessively loud headphone use
This past week has been horrible. I got hit by a car while riding home from work. The person just turned into me without even looking where he was turning. I saw his face. Then he asks me "Are you okay?" and then just runs off. My bike is totaled. I'm not hurt luckily, just a scrape on my arm.
That same day I get bothered by my significant others schizophrenic crack head ex (I wish I was exaggerating lol). She the kinda person who'd break into your house and strangle you. It just bothers me you know. It's like, "He's not yours anymore. He hasn't been for months. Grow the fuck up and leave me alone.".
Then the day after at work I get yelled at. Now I get yelled at all the time because of pissy ass customers. This guy was screaming at me about selling him cigarettes. He basically bought like 50 packs. Which includes 3 cartons (which includes 10 packs each). I'm not suppose to sell more than 4 cartons to one person each day. (People never buy more than 1 carton). However, I didn't know the limit was 4. So I called on my radio about the situation and I'm getting yelled by this customer for it. Now, like I said, I get yelled at all the time, but I felt like this man was going to hit me. I felt seriously threatened. It wasn't simply "Oh I'm mad". No I felt genuine threat from this man. I was about to call my manager and if he would have gone off on her r, she would have called the police most likely.
The next day my mom goes to the hospital. Due to it likely being a Hipaa violation to share her information. Therefore I will not disclose what is wrong with her health. But, lets just say she can possibly die within the next year or a few. Maybe she will live longer. There is no telling with her condition. However, since she has multiple other problems I'm scared for her. Shes the only one who has been there for me. My father was a dead beat abusive asshole. My Grandparents were there but they are dead, and have been for years. My mom is basically the only one I have left besides my brothers and my family that live across the country (that I don't really talk to).
Tomorrow, my brother graduates from High school. I want to go to his graduation. I can't because of H. Even with earplugs. I'd be there for hours. I'm able to go to the graduation dinner which is only likely going to be an hour. I can definitely do that but not the graduation. I feel like a disappointment. My brother doesn't mind but I feel like I've failed as a sister in a way.
This message isn't here to discourage others with H. I've just been having an awful week all together. I just needed a place to vent you know? I just wanna scream.
That same day I get bothered by my significant others schizophrenic crack head ex (I wish I was exaggerating lol). She the kinda person who'd break into your house and strangle you. It just bothers me you know. It's like, "He's not yours anymore. He hasn't been for months. Grow the fuck up and leave me alone.".
Then the day after at work I get yelled at. Now I get yelled at all the time because of pissy ass customers. This guy was screaming at me about selling him cigarettes. He basically bought like 50 packs. Which includes 3 cartons (which includes 10 packs each). I'm not suppose to sell more than 4 cartons to one person each day. (People never buy more than 1 carton). However, I didn't know the limit was 4. So I called on my radio about the situation and I'm getting yelled by this customer for it. Now, like I said, I get yelled at all the time, but I felt like this man was going to hit me. I felt seriously threatened. It wasn't simply "Oh I'm mad". No I felt genuine threat from this man. I was about to call my manager and if he would have gone off on her r, she would have called the police most likely.
The next day my mom goes to the hospital. Due to it likely being a Hipaa violation to share her information. Therefore I will not disclose what is wrong with her health. But, lets just say she can possibly die within the next year or a few. Maybe she will live longer. There is no telling with her condition. However, since she has multiple other problems I'm scared for her. Shes the only one who has been there for me. My father was a dead beat abusive asshole. My Grandparents were there but they are dead, and have been for years. My mom is basically the only one I have left besides my brothers and my family that live across the country (that I don't really talk to).
Tomorrow, my brother graduates from High school. I want to go to his graduation. I can't because of H. Even with earplugs. I'd be there for hours. I'm able to go to the graduation dinner which is only likely going to be an hour. I can definitely do that but not the graduation. I feel like a disappointment. My brother doesn't mind but I feel like I've failed as a sister in a way.
This message isn't here to discourage others with H. I've just been having an awful week all together. I just needed a place to vent you know? I just wanna scream.
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This forum is the best place to come and vent, I have done this myself in the last couple of days.
emma
