First Week in Hospital Done

[Nicola8478]

Had medication spike. Now probably got another mess going on from an MRI.

Truly getting to a point where I wanna just go out and make the most of the life I do have.

Have CBT counselling coming up and being offered white mouse machine and other stuff.

Tinnitus sounds like the highest sounding dentist drill that has yet to be invented.

Sorry for rambling, they just gave me some medication. They do that now after I stupidly tried to end it all last week. I know it crosses all our minds when it's chronic but even with this hell, I want my life back. I miss it so much and I have to live and fight for it.

I can have all the help in the world but I'm the only one that can save me at the end of the day. Once again sorry for rambling.

 

[New Guy]

I'm sorry for what you're going through.

 

[fishbone]

Had medication spike. Now probably got another mess going on from an MRI.

Truly getting to a point where I wanna just go out and make the most of the life I do have.

Have CBT counselling coming up and being offered white mouse machine and other stuff.

Tinnitus sounds like the highest sounding dentist drill that has yet to be invented.

Sorry for rambling, they just gave me some medication. They do that now after I stupidly tried to end it all last week. I know it crosses all our minds when it's chronic but even with this hell, I want my life back. I miss it so much and I have to live and fight for it.

I can have all the help in the world but I'm the only one that can save me at the end of the day. Once again sorry for rambling.

Don't ever be sorry for struggling. You are going through a rough time and it is ok to come and seek support. I come to this site just to support folks like yourself. I truly understand your frustrations, it is difficult living with this condition. I was over my friend's house and they are from Finland and they have a strong accent and my ears are beyond poor (-65 to -70 db on 4000-8000 scale) and I had to constantly ask them to repeat themselves. They do speak in very low tones as well. Next time, I will most likely put my hearing aids on and go and possibly have a better conversation with them.

Don't ever be sorry for your situation. You need love and support and members like myself just come to this site to help people like yourself. Take it easy in your journey, it takes lots of effort, time, support and staying motivated to move forward.

I hope your situation gets better and do know that eventually you can better cope with the tinnitus and live a productive life. It may seem impossible right now, but it is very possible

 

[Nicola8478]

Thank you @New Guy and @fishbone and I meant noise of course not mouse hehe

 

[Holly1987]

Sending lots of hugs xxxx

 

[dingaling]

@Nicola8478 You are not alone and don't ever blame yourself. T is not worth ending your life for, you CAN beat it. Give it time and remember, you are always welcome here.

 

[Nicola8478]

Thank you very much I appreciate it x @dingaling @Holly1987

 

[Jazzer]

I hope your situation gets better and do know that eventually you can better cope with the tinnitus and live a productive life. It may seem impossible right now, but it is very possible

@Nicola8478 - Fishbone is absolutely right.
They told me that things would get better.
I did not believe them!
They were right.
It's really a tough learning curve,
But You Will Make It xx

 

[glynis]

@Nicola8478 ,
Sorry to hear your having a difficult time with your tinnitus and tried to end your life.
You will get the help you need from the hospital and we are here for you also.
Sending hugs your way.
Love glynis

 

[New Guy]

You made me laugh when I read "White Mouse" machine. You brightened up my day.

 

[dayma]

Stay strong. I just go finished with IOP (Intensive Outpatient Therapy) for this also. CBT and DBT are not magic but through using these tools and medication it's becomes a little more manageable. If you do CBT/DBT just try to use it all the time. It's easy to not use the tools during times of anguish.