Don't give in or give up to T,
@RaZaH. I am in the same shoe with loud T blasting most mornings like you &
@Martin69. Some days when you have lots of things to do or enjoy, your brain will fade T out of consciousness, especially when you are relaxed such as on vacation, or when you are doing really fun things which distract you from T. I used to cave in mentally and physically to this mad scream waking up to that ultra high pitch shrill. In fact the brain caved in without any chance for me to stop it by will power. Instantly benzos like Ativan & ADs like Prozac or Amitriptyline would have to be taken to try to stop anxiety and panic attacks and their horrible symptoms. Then I would mask as much as my H could tolerate and I masked all day, even on the go while driving, while attending church, even while fishing, not to say bed time. Those were the darkest days of terror. The sufferings of T, H, A and P attacks combined to create an image of an unlivable life. I had to imagine that my body had been donated to my loved ones and composted or dead to all hurtful sensations. I told myself that anything which would kill me in this process would have to hurt me non-stop for 5 years before I would attempt scaling Mt. Everest or jumping off a plane, anything dangerous things that I had never tried before, kind of like Rose of the Titanic, lol. T would have to off me that way if the good Lord would not intervene.
So I was talking about accepting anything tolerable better than death will keep me surviving for at least 5 years. Then I began to challenge the phobia of that screaming T (which is blasting right now at the highest pitch as I am now typing on the subject of T and it is brought to the forth front of consciousness). Some people will object to my use of the analogy of people exposing to extremely loud noises in loud jobs without protection, but that is exactly the analogy which helps me to calm down that nerve when hearing my resonating high pitch scream. Today, that scream is above the heavy rain shower sound (at loud volume) from 'aire freshener' at my work PC. But honestly, I don't react to it any more because every time the brain might be iffy, I would use mental imagery technique to substitute myself as one of those guys in the loud jobs (drillers, miners, jack-hammer users etc.) and tell the brain that if those guys don't cave in to those noises without ear protection (and they do this day in and day out without being a mental wreck), why should I want to off myself for my T or going crazy with it. Yes, the brain would say T doesn't leave me. Or is it? There are times you really don't care about it or don't hear it while your are very busy. I can also try to mask it and soften its impact. Would drillers have rain or cicadas masking while they work in the 3rd world? LOL. Also, in all honesty, no T sound can match those loud machines in real life volume at close range where these workers are.
When I kept at this kind of mental imagery, my brain would reluctantly agree with me on this. It finally caught up at some point, as I keep on hammering the same message to it on those hugely spiking days, kind of like brain-washing it, hypnotizing, deprogramming it non-stop with the same message. I would treat those as a drillers or jack-hammer operators on long shift without ear protection. Those guys do that for wages, darn it. Can't I just learn to accept my reality and move on with life on all those other things I can enjoy? Guys, don't criticize me or jump me. If you don't agree with this approach, then don't use it. For me, it works like a charm after a while. A typical scenario upon waking up, T goes "eeeeeeeeee" at ultra high pitch, resonating, me go " Screw it T, trying to bully me again? No chance! I am a tough driller today and so be it, at least not 1000+ FT underground risking mine collapse or gas poisoning or explosion. Take a ticket, T. I am busy. What are the fun things I can do today?'. Then one more positive affirmation to the stupid brain as I go about the day, 'Haha, it feels good to trample on Mr. T the bully and walk over it like Rocky did to his bullying opponent'. It feels good when I could finally floor Mr. T and can reclaim my life". Does it work initially with this approach? No quite successful. But it gets better over time, as the brain finally believe it when repeated hundreds of time. Kind of like the politicians brain-washing the voters with their lies on campaign ads repeatedly and, at some point, those brains just buy into the message. LOL.
You can say I use the same method like IWLM's method, but I add on much more vivid mental imagery & reasoning to impress on the brain to convince it to not to react to T with fear, anxiety or depression, all those negative emotions which can perpetuate the tyranny of Mr. T. I also wrote lots of WORD documents to counter or challenge the distorted thoughts caused by T. I won't want to supply an oz of fuel to this hated bully to continue its tyranny over me. It takes time to get there. Hopefully those modern meds like Autifony & AM101 will be available in due time. But before they get here, yeup, improving my reaction to the T shrill is the only tool for me at this point. Give it time, guys, and try some mental approach such as CBT or mindfulness meditation or my mental imagery approach to see if they can soften the impact of T on your lives. All the best & God bless.
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