Starting a bit over 2 years ago, I started to get intermittent (average 1-2 hours a day) noise in my left ear. The sound is like a high pitched, pure electronic tone, alternating every second or two (but very erratically) with a quieter flickering sound as if that pure tone was being repeatedly dunked underwater, or like the "wire" that feeds it was being "bent" (if it were an electronic toy). Nothing special happened to me around the time that I started getting the T and after a couple of weeks it went away. Then weeks later it came back. Then went away again. Then came back, and one morning I woke up, yawned, and heard a soft sort of echo of it in my RIGHT ear.
Since then it has been gone for as long as a month and a half. It has been nonstop (constant pure tone) as long as a week. Seven times it has tricked me into thinking it's gone forever. At this point either I'm suffering its torture or bracing for its return. My right ear is now constantly going, but it's so soft it doesn't bother me. The left is either silent, or very distracting.
Sometimes when I rest on my left side, I feel symptoms similar to swimmer's ear. Like pressure, or trickling, or a hot/painful/relieving sort of "opening up" feeling. Like a little worm is living inside my ear and causing the T.
One time when the T was particularly bad for a week, I got flu-like symptoms, and my neck became very sore (like I had slept with my neck crooked, except it was on every side of my neck).
Again when it was bad for a week, I would find that when I spoke it would "buzz" my ear. Like a physical sensation of buzzing.
I've almost never gone to concerts. I often played video games with headphones but they were the nice cushy kind and I didn't think they were too loud. I use speakers now.
Thinking there must be a physical cause, I went to an ENT. He looked in my ear, cleaned it, didn't see anything special. Told me T can be caused by just about anything. Tested my hearing (hearing is perfect, no hearing loss). Strapped electrodes to my brain and tested my brain's responses to noises in my ear. No issues there either. This just reinforces my theory that there's something physiological IN the ear causing this.
The idea of therapy and habituation enrages me. If I called a plumber to my house and he said "well, I'm not going to fix your toilet, but here's some therapy to help you adjust to your new life of shitting in the woods", I would kick him out of my house. No plumber would say that. Nor electrician, software developer, painter, janitor, astronaut, winemaker, soldier, cook!! If there was a problem with the STUFF they worked with, they would be like, "Hey! Let's FIX THE STUFF!"
WE are made of stuff. There is a small, physical defect with the STUFF in my left ear. A very small defect within like an inch of known space! Help me fix it. What is the first step!?
Wild guesses on my part?
-One of my back upper left teeth has been semi-rotted from birth. It has fillings that haven't been checked in a while.
-I have a bad habit of clenching my jaw hard when I sleep.
-Was exposed to an explosively loud noise (on my left!) at the age of 4. Developed T at the age of 28?? I never had even one second of T before I got it two years ago.
-Some nerve, fluid tube, air tube, something?? Being pinched by a flickering muscle? The way that it's a pure tone that gets "strangled" or suppressed, it feels like it's struggling to make its sound sometimes. Like it's a hose that keeps getting pinched and its flow stuttering.
-4 years ago (2 years before I got my T) the back of my nostrils became (permanently) swollen up a bit, this reduces my nasal capacity by about 50%.
-Even before that, I've never been a super steady breather. My parents would notice as a kid that I would sort of hold my breath for too long and then exhale/inhale in a woosh.
Since then it has been gone for as long as a month and a half. It has been nonstop (constant pure tone) as long as a week. Seven times it has tricked me into thinking it's gone forever. At this point either I'm suffering its torture or bracing for its return. My right ear is now constantly going, but it's so soft it doesn't bother me. The left is either silent, or very distracting.
Sometimes when I rest on my left side, I feel symptoms similar to swimmer's ear. Like pressure, or trickling, or a hot/painful/relieving sort of "opening up" feeling. Like a little worm is living inside my ear and causing the T.
One time when the T was particularly bad for a week, I got flu-like symptoms, and my neck became very sore (like I had slept with my neck crooked, except it was on every side of my neck).
Again when it was bad for a week, I would find that when I spoke it would "buzz" my ear. Like a physical sensation of buzzing.
I've almost never gone to concerts. I often played video games with headphones but they were the nice cushy kind and I didn't think they were too loud. I use speakers now.
Thinking there must be a physical cause, I went to an ENT. He looked in my ear, cleaned it, didn't see anything special. Told me T can be caused by just about anything. Tested my hearing (hearing is perfect, no hearing loss). Strapped electrodes to my brain and tested my brain's responses to noises in my ear. No issues there either. This just reinforces my theory that there's something physiological IN the ear causing this.
The idea of therapy and habituation enrages me. If I called a plumber to my house and he said "well, I'm not going to fix your toilet, but here's some therapy to help you adjust to your new life of shitting in the woods", I would kick him out of my house. No plumber would say that. Nor electrician, software developer, painter, janitor, astronaut, winemaker, soldier, cook!! If there was a problem with the STUFF they worked with, they would be like, "Hey! Let's FIX THE STUFF!"
WE are made of stuff. There is a small, physical defect with the STUFF in my left ear. A very small defect within like an inch of known space! Help me fix it. What is the first step!?
Wild guesses on my part?
-One of my back upper left teeth has been semi-rotted from birth. It has fillings that haven't been checked in a while.
-I have a bad habit of clenching my jaw hard when I sleep.
-Was exposed to an explosively loud noise (on my left!) at the age of 4. Developed T at the age of 28?? I never had even one second of T before I got it two years ago.
-Some nerve, fluid tube, air tube, something?? Being pinched by a flickering muscle? The way that it's a pure tone that gets "strangled" or suppressed, it feels like it's struggling to make its sound sometimes. Like it's a hose that keeps getting pinched and its flow stuttering.
-4 years ago (2 years before I got my T) the back of my nostrils became (permanently) swollen up a bit, this reduces my nasal capacity by about 50%.
-Even before that, I've never been a super steady breather. My parents would notice as a kid that I would sort of hold my breath for too long and then exhale/inhale in a woosh.