Hey everyone! I decided that since I developed T back in July of this year, that it would be good to start a thread for myself, and others, to keep track of how I'm progressing and what life is like. Here's a little backstory of how it started, how I've progressed, and how I'm currently feeling.
So as many of you know, T is incredibly lame, especially during the initial onset. I'm 21 years old, a musician. Since the age of 16, I've been blasting my huge guitar amp at high volumes, along with my car stereo, and worst of all, headphones at high volumes. I never expected what I would later get to know as tinnitus, to come about. I just kept ignorant and assumed I'd just lose frequencies a bit faster than others. Even that I didn't pay much attention to, because I was / am young.
Anyway, like I said, it started at the end of July, while I was at my families summer house in Maine. I loved the natural beauty all around, especially the quiet. On one of the few remaining days I was there, I went on a little rowboat adventure while intoxicated, and brought my headphones as usual. The problem this time is that I turned them up far louder than I've ever turned them up before. I have a mini-amp, so it went louder than max volume with just an iPod plugged in. Normally I look at the volume number on the amp to gauge the level, but this time I stupidly just used my ears. I was "feelin" the music so I cranked it. The next morning I woke up, and I heard a static kind of hiss in my left ear.
At first I wasn't alarmed, but after a day, or two, followed by three, I was really worried. I googled what it was, and that's when I was introduced to Tinnitus. After a few weeks, I was emotionally and mentally wrecked. I started having panic attacks, depression, anxiety, all the "good" stuff which I've never experienced in my life before. I'm already a pretty emotional person compared to others, so this period was brutal. To top it off, I lost my apartment over the summer so I had to move into my dads place he is renovating. It's where I originally grew up from birth to 6 years old. I also had to replace my stolen car, thankfully with insurance money I was awarded. Commuting an hour and a half to school, each way, on top of everything else, made it all worse.
As time went on I got more used to the sound, and I've been emotionally reacting less, although still bothered by it. The original left ear hiss has become unilateral a while back, with the addition of a following tonal ringing sound in my left ear. Originally I could only hear it if I plugged my left ear in the morning after waking up (it's more apparent when I lay down.. blood flow?) but now it's becoming more and more apparent without me covering my ear. I hear it now. My right ear is slowly starting to develop the same tonal style of ringing also, which is lame. I've acquired a pair of custom fitted earplugs since I developed T, I wear them at loud events / shows, which I go to dramatically less since developing my inner sounds. It seems my sounds are getting worse as time goes on, but emotionally I'm far more stable than I was before. On Halloween I spend the entire day crying, in a negative downward spiral, beating myself up mentally & emotionally.
Tinnitus has caused me to start exploring topics that I've either never touched before or have only dabbled in. Spiritual / ancient healing, and spirituality as a whole. I understood the physical cause of tinnitus, but as a musician and emotional person, I look deeper into almost everything. I've gone in circles a bit, making some discoveries along the way. I do value western medicine to an extent, but I'm also aware of the perpetual money-making machine known as the pharmaceutical industry, as well as people who are into something for greed rather than to help others or humanity as a whole.
I honestly believe that we will see either a cure, or suppressant for T within the next 10 years, perhaps sooner (according to certain experts, less likely, but nothing is impossible). I've been looking into alternative medicine like many probably have, and can't help but believe there exists something in our natural world that combats T. The world has so many possibilities, but unfortunately I don't know the answer.
On the positive side, I just got back from a short trip to visit my mother in Washington DC, I'm about to celebrate New Years out in the california desert at a desert party in which I get to play guitar along with a DJ friend of mine, and then I get to move into my new apartment that I found with two really solid roommates. The perfect fit I can tell. Oh, and then I'm flying to Hawai'i (where I grew up) for 3 weeks before classes start to visit friends, relax, and go on many outdoor explorations!
Life isn't bad, I know I have so much to be happy and grateful for. That isn't to deny that these sounds in my head aren't bothersome. I would love to hear perminent silence again, as we all do. When it happens, I'm gonna party like its 1999! 3 days nonstop, with drinks, music (with earplugs!), and so much more craziness.
I'll post more on this thread with whatever thoughts I'm having, in regards to interesting information I've found, and also just general updates.
Thank you so much to everyone apart of Tinnitus Talk. I appreciate this community so much that words cannot even describe how I feel. Much love to everyone here.
So as many of you know, T is incredibly lame, especially during the initial onset. I'm 21 years old, a musician. Since the age of 16, I've been blasting my huge guitar amp at high volumes, along with my car stereo, and worst of all, headphones at high volumes. I never expected what I would later get to know as tinnitus, to come about. I just kept ignorant and assumed I'd just lose frequencies a bit faster than others. Even that I didn't pay much attention to, because I was / am young.
Anyway, like I said, it started at the end of July, while I was at my families summer house in Maine. I loved the natural beauty all around, especially the quiet. On one of the few remaining days I was there, I went on a little rowboat adventure while intoxicated, and brought my headphones as usual. The problem this time is that I turned them up far louder than I've ever turned them up before. I have a mini-amp, so it went louder than max volume with just an iPod plugged in. Normally I look at the volume number on the amp to gauge the level, but this time I stupidly just used my ears. I was "feelin" the music so I cranked it. The next morning I woke up, and I heard a static kind of hiss in my left ear.
At first I wasn't alarmed, but after a day, or two, followed by three, I was really worried. I googled what it was, and that's when I was introduced to Tinnitus. After a few weeks, I was emotionally and mentally wrecked. I started having panic attacks, depression, anxiety, all the "good" stuff which I've never experienced in my life before. I'm already a pretty emotional person compared to others, so this period was brutal. To top it off, I lost my apartment over the summer so I had to move into my dads place he is renovating. It's where I originally grew up from birth to 6 years old. I also had to replace my stolen car, thankfully with insurance money I was awarded. Commuting an hour and a half to school, each way, on top of everything else, made it all worse.
As time went on I got more used to the sound, and I've been emotionally reacting less, although still bothered by it. The original left ear hiss has become unilateral a while back, with the addition of a following tonal ringing sound in my left ear. Originally I could only hear it if I plugged my left ear in the morning after waking up (it's more apparent when I lay down.. blood flow?) but now it's becoming more and more apparent without me covering my ear. I hear it now. My right ear is slowly starting to develop the same tonal style of ringing also, which is lame. I've acquired a pair of custom fitted earplugs since I developed T, I wear them at loud events / shows, which I go to dramatically less since developing my inner sounds. It seems my sounds are getting worse as time goes on, but emotionally I'm far more stable than I was before. On Halloween I spend the entire day crying, in a negative downward spiral, beating myself up mentally & emotionally.
Tinnitus has caused me to start exploring topics that I've either never touched before or have only dabbled in. Spiritual / ancient healing, and spirituality as a whole. I understood the physical cause of tinnitus, but as a musician and emotional person, I look deeper into almost everything. I've gone in circles a bit, making some discoveries along the way. I do value western medicine to an extent, but I'm also aware of the perpetual money-making machine known as the pharmaceutical industry, as well as people who are into something for greed rather than to help others or humanity as a whole.
I honestly believe that we will see either a cure, or suppressant for T within the next 10 years, perhaps sooner (according to certain experts, less likely, but nothing is impossible). I've been looking into alternative medicine like many probably have, and can't help but believe there exists something in our natural world that combats T. The world has so many possibilities, but unfortunately I don't know the answer.
On the positive side, I just got back from a short trip to visit my mother in Washington DC, I'm about to celebrate New Years out in the california desert at a desert party in which I get to play guitar along with a DJ friend of mine, and then I get to move into my new apartment that I found with two really solid roommates. The perfect fit I can tell. Oh, and then I'm flying to Hawai'i (where I grew up) for 3 weeks before classes start to visit friends, relax, and go on many outdoor explorations!
Life isn't bad, I know I have so much to be happy and grateful for. That isn't to deny that these sounds in my head aren't bothersome. I would love to hear perminent silence again, as we all do. When it happens, I'm gonna party like its 1999! 3 days nonstop, with drinks, music (with earplugs!), and so much more craziness.
I'll post more on this thread with whatever thoughts I'm having, in regards to interesting information I've found, and also just general updates.
Thank you so much to everyone apart of Tinnitus Talk. I appreciate this community so much that words cannot even describe how I feel. Much love to everyone here.
I had a wonderful time out in the desert with friends, ringing in 2015. Playing guitar was great, everyone enjoyed it. By the next time I do it again, I'm gonna be twice as good due to the practice regime I must start. 
