Hello! My name is Martyna and I've been suffering from tinnitus for 2,5 years now.
I didn't have any ear injuries, I didn't listen to loud music. At that time I was suffering from anxiety disorder, I had panic attacks, and that is when my tinnitus appeared.
For the first time I had it for a couple of hours. I was panicked, but I took sleeping pills, went to bed and fall asleep. The next morning tinnitus was gone. It was ok for a couple of weeks, but as I was still struggling a lot with my anxiety disorder, one night tinnitus appeared again. I was panicked. I didn't have my sleeping pills, so I couldn't take them. And from that moment my tinnitus has been with me 24/7.
At the beginning it was devastating, but as time went by I got used to my tinnitus. I wasn't happy about having it in my life, I still heard it during the night, in silent places etc, but I wasn't afraid of it anymore.
Two weeks ago something strange happened - I started to hear another sound in my left ear. So now I have one sound in both ears, and additional one in left ear only.
And... here we go again. Fear, tears and questions "why did it happen/why am I hearing this sound" are back. Focusing on it also makes me think about my "first" tinnitus more. Sometimes I think I'm going crazy.
So here I am, looking for some support and for someone who will convince me that it is going to be fine... because it is, right?
I didn't have any ear injuries, I didn't listen to loud music. At that time I was suffering from anxiety disorder, I had panic attacks, and that is when my tinnitus appeared.
For the first time I had it for a couple of hours. I was panicked, but I took sleeping pills, went to bed and fall asleep. The next morning tinnitus was gone. It was ok for a couple of weeks, but as I was still struggling a lot with my anxiety disorder, one night tinnitus appeared again. I was panicked. I didn't have my sleeping pills, so I couldn't take them. And from that moment my tinnitus has been with me 24/7.
At the beginning it was devastating, but as time went by I got used to my tinnitus. I wasn't happy about having it in my life, I still heard it during the night, in silent places etc, but I wasn't afraid of it anymore.
Two weeks ago something strange happened - I started to hear another sound in my left ear. So now I have one sound in both ears, and additional one in left ear only.
And... here we go again. Fear, tears and questions "why did it happen/why am I hearing this sound" are back. Focusing on it also makes me think about my "first" tinnitus more. Sometimes I think I'm going crazy.
So here I am, looking for some support and for someone who will convince me that it is going to be fine... because it is, right?