Hi everyone.
I'm writing this to vent I guess. Finding this website was a bit of a blessing. I can't believe how bad this is and that its getting even worse.
About a week ago my dumb ass visited a doctor for a fairly minor health complaint. I caught a cold, and pretty much immediately i started suffering with mild tinnitus. At first i thought "this is aint so bad" but it just got worse and worse. Its now a screeching neverending dog whistle noise that i almost cant mask. Its unbearable. Standing next to the faucet with both taps running almost drowns it out but not quite. I'd rate it maybe a 7 or 8 atm. Sometimes it dies down to a 4 or 5 but mever for long. Sometimes it'll jump to a 9 or 10 where its just excruciating and i feel like my heads about to explode. I can only sleep when my body's exhausted and basically just gives up.
No pain i've ever felt in my life compares to this, Broken bones migraines damaged molars nothing. This is a living hell and i know its disgusting to say this around other sufferers and i hate myself for it but i wish i was dead.
I just turned 24 and i cant do this for another 50 or 60 years. Goddamn theres no relief. God help me i can't live like this. Thinking of ending it all. Its like there's buzz saw goong off in my head.
Thanks for taking the time to read this.
I'm writing this to vent I guess. Finding this website was a bit of a blessing. I can't believe how bad this is and that its getting even worse.
About a week ago my dumb ass visited a doctor for a fairly minor health complaint. I caught a cold, and pretty much immediately i started suffering with mild tinnitus. At first i thought "this is aint so bad" but it just got worse and worse. Its now a screeching neverending dog whistle noise that i almost cant mask. Its unbearable. Standing next to the faucet with both taps running almost drowns it out but not quite. I'd rate it maybe a 7 or 8 atm. Sometimes it dies down to a 4 or 5 but mever for long. Sometimes it'll jump to a 9 or 10 where its just excruciating and i feel like my heads about to explode. I can only sleep when my body's exhausted and basically just gives up.
No pain i've ever felt in my life compares to this, Broken bones migraines damaged molars nothing. This is a living hell and i know its disgusting to say this around other sufferers and i hate myself for it but i wish i was dead.
I just turned 24 and i cant do this for another 50 or 60 years. Goddamn theres no relief. God help me i can't live like this. Thinking of ending it all. Its like there's buzz saw goong off in my head.
Thanks for taking the time to read this.