New to Here. Increasing Tinnitus.

[MumbleBee]

Hey. I've had ringing in my ears for as long as I can remember. But over the past couple of years it has increased and just recently it has taken a new form. My right side has gotten significantly worse, louder and with clicking, and my left has just recently started to cramp and pulsate. The feeling of constant pressure and the desire to "pop" my ears is becoming really annoying. The most stressful part about it all is that I currently have no health insurance and I already suffer from depression and the constant feeling of living life in a bubble is creating a miserable life experience for me. Or at least that's what it feels like.

I live in the city and work in a kitchen and the constant metal on metal and dinging of timers and blenders whirring and PA announcements make me extremely irritated which in turn leads me to project that upon others.

I still feel hopeful that one day something that I do will cause a big relief but until then I keep trying and testing theories that I have.

I just want to one day experience peace in silence again. I've always slept with a fan on to distract me from the ringing but now being relying on that fact makes changing routine difficult. I love listening to music and going to see live music but these days there is only so much I can enjoy before,again, the irritation and misery swoon in.

I've gotten accustomed to saying "what'd you say? To most everyone because I can't hear certain levels of sound when there are higher pitched sounds happening at the same time.

I guess ultimately I am here because for the past few years I have felt completely isolated with this problem and when trying to communicate it to others around me it always leaves me feeling like I'm crazy.

There's much more to the whole story but this is the host of it all and if you're reading this I truly appreciate you taking the time to do so.

Thank you. Have an amazing day.

 

[fishbone]

Welcome to the forum. Your work environment sounds very loud. Are you using any ear plugs or anything to protect your ears? Tinnitus can lead to isolation and many people will never understand the pain and suffering we go through. This site gets it and the people here get it. You can always reach out to the members here.

Take care

 

[billie48]

I guess ultimately I am here because for the past few years I have felt completely isolated with this problem and when trying to communicate it to others around me it always leaves me feeling like I'm crazy.

Yes, it is very hard for those without such intrusive tinnitus to fathom why we go through so much suffering because of a mere ringing sound. Hopefully we can use some videos to show our loved ones what it is all about. You can share some youtube video such as this one by Steve, one of the admins of this forum.



There are many videos on youtube video. I like this one by Zoe Cartwright, one of the ladies I mentioned as my 'guiding light' during my darkest days. She was totally deaf at 15 and so her T is unmaskable. She made this short tinnitus film to show us what it is like to have tinnitus:



This video by some household names David Letterman and William Shatner in 1996 will help people understand that even these top celebrities have to deal with tinnitus too. Shatner had told others that he was initially suicidal until he was referred to ATA to get some treatment with TRT. So you can tell your loved ones to watch this so they know that you are not alone in telling them you have had a hard time.

 

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Thank you for this