I have had noise induced tinnitus and hyperacusis since late 2017, but only in my right ear. I had largely learned to deal with it and could lead a somewhat normal life. When I would go outside I would wear some moderate (25 dB NRR) earmuffs to reduce the sound of car engines and whatnot. When it first happened, I couldn't listen to music or TV without getting spikes, but eventually could listen to them again, as long as it was at a low level. I couldn't go to any loud events like concerts or sports, but I could still ride my bike in city traffic and go to the grocery store which is near a train station and an airport. Maybe I would come home with a lil bit of a spike after the groceries, but nothing too bothersome. I used lots of masking noise in my home to help distract me. I continued to work in an environment which was moderately loud and it never let my tinnitus really settle, but I got used to it.
In mid 2020, there were protests near my house and police used a lot of explosives for crowd control. I was exposed to one "flashbang" type device about a block away. It caused a massive spike that lasted for months. Though I generally didn't lose any abilities, it did cause a fair amount of distress and difficulty sleeping and I'm not sure if I ever fully got to come down from the spike.
In late 2020, I took ibuprofen for a week due to some dental work, and this caused another spike with a very odd tone that would fluctuate in frequency and was very hard to ignore, and also made my right ear become sensitive to the noise of air rushing over my earmuffs while riding a bike. Eventually I started putting in an earplug in that ear and it helped a lot to reduce spikes from riding a bike. Thankfully the fluctuating tone has mostly gone away, but the sensitivity to air over the earmuffs never left.
Around this time, I also was noticing watching TV would occasionally cause annoying spikes. I decided to only watch with subtitles and no sound, like I had done when I first got tinnitus in 2017. I assumed I would get better again, but unfortunately I didn't get the chance
At the end of 2020, my neighbor got this crazy loud car with a turbo booster and no muffler. Every time he would start it up, it would make my jump and my ears ring. It cause a lot of anxiety because I had no idea when he would start his car. I started wearing earmuffs inside my house for a lot of the time and this helped me relax. It also cut down on a lot of the traffic noise coming from outside. I had read about "over protection" in this forum but I felt the benefits were outweighing the risks. My tinnitus tends to vary a lot, and wearing hearing protection keeps it a lot more stable. A car or motorcycle driving by my house would set it off and before I would wear hearing protection, I was constantly stopping what I was doing and covering my ears.
If I wore the earmuffs all the time, I would have to listen to the sound of tinnitus, but for the first time instead of masking it, I started to learn to just ignore it. But listening to it all the time like that, I became more aware of smaller fluctuations in the tones, and more and more I would want to avoid anything which would cause even minor changes.
This summer in June and July 2021, my neighbors were going crazy with firework and m80s/m1000s. By the end of the 4th of July holiday, my base tinnitus level was a lot higher than it had been in May, but I was still hanging in there. But the week after, I was exposed to a severely loud explosion at least a quarter mile away (based on time distance between the flash and noise), and despite wearing earmuffs at the time, my left ear also joined the tinnitus club. A week after than, I got exposed to a very loud firework right outside my house while not wearing hearing protection at all, and the week after THAT, I was riding my bike on a bike trail, which I didn't realize was right next to a train track. A train that I never saw blasted me to smithereens with their horn. I had been riding with friends and I had to turn back and go find someplace to basically have a breakdown because the ringing in my ears was insanely loud. I was wearing double protection in both ears at the time of the train, but despite this, the spike was off the charts. I couldn't even think straight and had sleeping problems for a few weeks. And since then, even if things settle down, they can still easily spike back up to those crazy loud levels.
I spent a few weeks basically just struggling to survive day by day. I felt paranoid that some explosion or some other loud noise was going to happen any second after three weeks in a row of random 120+ dB sounds. I never felt safe taking my hearing protection off. I have basically been wearing it 24/7 now in my house, except in the shower and sometimes late late at night when there's no cars driving by my house and the risk of fireworks are lower.
Since my left ear got tinnitus, I can't even comfortably use a phone any more, it's just really harsh and annoying. In the past I had covered up my right ear and only used the left, but now that's no good. I have started using an app which converts voice to text so I can still use a phone when needed, but it's not very good for long conversations, for example with loved ones.
And speaking of loved ones, now my significant other has left me, citing the fact that they and their child could not have a normal life if they were to live with me. They could never listen to music or watch TV, or do be loud while cooking, or anything normal that people do.
Having to wear double hearing protection just to feel safe going outside makes it really hard to hear people, especially if they are wearing their COVID-19 mask. I wear heavy duty Peltor earmuffs, not the biggest ones they make but still quite large and goofy, when before my old muffs could pass for music headphones. I have to get close to people just to understand, and involved conversations are pretty much impossible outside.
I can't keep a relationship going. I can't work at my old job. I can't go to the grocery store. I can't watch TV. I can't listen music. I can't talk on the phone. I can't ride my bike on city streets. I can't even walk out my front door without double hearing protection because cause of all the loud cars. I have become practically a prisoner in my own home.
The only small good thing to come out of this is I no longer need masking noises. When I take my earmuffs off, the ringing is so much quieter than when they are on, that even if I am still aware of it, it is pretty easy to ignore... assuming it's at a moderate level. But if I leave my earmuffs off, the ringing will be brought up much louder by the end of the day due to all the cars driving by my house. I can deal with it fine when the ringing is quiet, but the range is so great and almost anything will set it off. I tried to go the grocery store recently and planes landing nearby made my ears ring loud enough to disturb my sleep the next day.
I can't imagine how I will date again if I can't even go outside. A library isn't exactly a hot date location. Even the most understanding person I have ever met finally realized they couldn't deal with it. Trying to meet new people just feels daunting, and having to explain everything is embarrassing.
I dream of moving to the mountains where it's quiet and I could stop wearing hearing protection so much. I really need to at least move away from my noisy area, but moving isn't exactly easy right now.
This is getting ridiculous how many abilities I am losing, and only over a short amount of time. I can't take another year of these losses. Besides moving I don't know what I can do to help myself. I want to stop "overprotecting" but I can't even go 30 minutes without a motorcycle or something ripping down my street. I can't keep going like this though.
I have started taking NAC 600 mg 2x a day and also cut out aspartame gum. I feel like those two things have helped stabilize my tinnitus and hyperacusis just a tiny bit. I also take 400 mg Magnesium at bedtime. I used to take 200 mg but upped it to 400 mg. This does help me sleep I feel like. But these things don't stop spikes or help me do things I used to enjoy. At least I can still manage the level of ringing but it's been going up and up... and I still hopefully have a long time left on this planet. I don't want to imagine these kind of increases happening every few years.
If anybody has some suggestions on what I can or should do, I welcome them. I feel like moving is my only answer but it's also one of the logistically toughest ones to do right now. When I tell this story to "normal hearing people", they always ask if I've been to a doctor. I've been to three audiologists in the past, but not recently, since none in the past seemed to be able to really help me. Do you think there is a reason to go again?
Thanks for reading this long post and stay safe out there folks.
In mid 2020, there were protests near my house and police used a lot of explosives for crowd control. I was exposed to one "flashbang" type device about a block away. It caused a massive spike that lasted for months. Though I generally didn't lose any abilities, it did cause a fair amount of distress and difficulty sleeping and I'm not sure if I ever fully got to come down from the spike.
In late 2020, I took ibuprofen for a week due to some dental work, and this caused another spike with a very odd tone that would fluctuate in frequency and was very hard to ignore, and also made my right ear become sensitive to the noise of air rushing over my earmuffs while riding a bike. Eventually I started putting in an earplug in that ear and it helped a lot to reduce spikes from riding a bike. Thankfully the fluctuating tone has mostly gone away, but the sensitivity to air over the earmuffs never left.
Around this time, I also was noticing watching TV would occasionally cause annoying spikes. I decided to only watch with subtitles and no sound, like I had done when I first got tinnitus in 2017. I assumed I would get better again, but unfortunately I didn't get the chance
At the end of 2020, my neighbor got this crazy loud car with a turbo booster and no muffler. Every time he would start it up, it would make my jump and my ears ring. It cause a lot of anxiety because I had no idea when he would start his car. I started wearing earmuffs inside my house for a lot of the time and this helped me relax. It also cut down on a lot of the traffic noise coming from outside. I had read about "over protection" in this forum but I felt the benefits were outweighing the risks. My tinnitus tends to vary a lot, and wearing hearing protection keeps it a lot more stable. A car or motorcycle driving by my house would set it off and before I would wear hearing protection, I was constantly stopping what I was doing and covering my ears.
If I wore the earmuffs all the time, I would have to listen to the sound of tinnitus, but for the first time instead of masking it, I started to learn to just ignore it. But listening to it all the time like that, I became more aware of smaller fluctuations in the tones, and more and more I would want to avoid anything which would cause even minor changes.
This summer in June and July 2021, my neighbors were going crazy with firework and m80s/m1000s. By the end of the 4th of July holiday, my base tinnitus level was a lot higher than it had been in May, but I was still hanging in there. But the week after, I was exposed to a severely loud explosion at least a quarter mile away (based on time distance between the flash and noise), and despite wearing earmuffs at the time, my left ear also joined the tinnitus club. A week after than, I got exposed to a very loud firework right outside my house while not wearing hearing protection at all, and the week after THAT, I was riding my bike on a bike trail, which I didn't realize was right next to a train track. A train that I never saw blasted me to smithereens with their horn. I had been riding with friends and I had to turn back and go find someplace to basically have a breakdown because the ringing in my ears was insanely loud. I was wearing double protection in both ears at the time of the train, but despite this, the spike was off the charts. I couldn't even think straight and had sleeping problems for a few weeks. And since then, even if things settle down, they can still easily spike back up to those crazy loud levels.
I spent a few weeks basically just struggling to survive day by day. I felt paranoid that some explosion or some other loud noise was going to happen any second after three weeks in a row of random 120+ dB sounds. I never felt safe taking my hearing protection off. I have basically been wearing it 24/7 now in my house, except in the shower and sometimes late late at night when there's no cars driving by my house and the risk of fireworks are lower.
Since my left ear got tinnitus, I can't even comfortably use a phone any more, it's just really harsh and annoying. In the past I had covered up my right ear and only used the left, but now that's no good. I have started using an app which converts voice to text so I can still use a phone when needed, but it's not very good for long conversations, for example with loved ones.
And speaking of loved ones, now my significant other has left me, citing the fact that they and their child could not have a normal life if they were to live with me. They could never listen to music or watch TV, or do be loud while cooking, or anything normal that people do.
Having to wear double hearing protection just to feel safe going outside makes it really hard to hear people, especially if they are wearing their COVID-19 mask. I wear heavy duty Peltor earmuffs, not the biggest ones they make but still quite large and goofy, when before my old muffs could pass for music headphones. I have to get close to people just to understand, and involved conversations are pretty much impossible outside.
I can't keep a relationship going. I can't work at my old job. I can't go to the grocery store. I can't watch TV. I can't listen music. I can't talk on the phone. I can't ride my bike on city streets. I can't even walk out my front door without double hearing protection because cause of all the loud cars. I have become practically a prisoner in my own home.
The only small good thing to come out of this is I no longer need masking noises. When I take my earmuffs off, the ringing is so much quieter than when they are on, that even if I am still aware of it, it is pretty easy to ignore... assuming it's at a moderate level. But if I leave my earmuffs off, the ringing will be brought up much louder by the end of the day due to all the cars driving by my house. I can deal with it fine when the ringing is quiet, but the range is so great and almost anything will set it off. I tried to go the grocery store recently and planes landing nearby made my ears ring loud enough to disturb my sleep the next day.
I can't imagine how I will date again if I can't even go outside. A library isn't exactly a hot date location. Even the most understanding person I have ever met finally realized they couldn't deal with it. Trying to meet new people just feels daunting, and having to explain everything is embarrassing.
I dream of moving to the mountains where it's quiet and I could stop wearing hearing protection so much. I really need to at least move away from my noisy area, but moving isn't exactly easy right now.
This is getting ridiculous how many abilities I am losing, and only over a short amount of time. I can't take another year of these losses. Besides moving I don't know what I can do to help myself. I want to stop "overprotecting" but I can't even go 30 minutes without a motorcycle or something ripping down my street. I can't keep going like this though.
I have started taking NAC 600 mg 2x a day and also cut out aspartame gum. I feel like those two things have helped stabilize my tinnitus and hyperacusis just a tiny bit. I also take 400 mg Magnesium at bedtime. I used to take 200 mg but upped it to 400 mg. This does help me sleep I feel like. But these things don't stop spikes or help me do things I used to enjoy. At least I can still manage the level of ringing but it's been going up and up... and I still hopefully have a long time left on this planet. I don't want to imagine these kind of increases happening every few years.
If anybody has some suggestions on what I can or should do, I welcome them. I feel like moving is my only answer but it's also one of the logistically toughest ones to do right now. When I tell this story to "normal hearing people", they always ask if I've been to a doctor. I've been to three audiologists in the past, but not recently, since none in the past seemed to be able to really help me. Do you think there is a reason to go again?
Thanks for reading this long post and stay safe out there folks.