I smoke marijuana cigarettes. I did in extreme moderation before, like 1 - 3 times a year max when I went to the cottage with friends during the summer. Never a habit. Now, since tinnitus onset, I just don't care. It gives me a quality of life. I'll take being high off my head and sleeping like a baby and eating right and being in a good mood as opposed to insomnia, horrific anxiety, and obsessing over the tinnitus.
This appears to be common with tinnitus sufferers and hyperacusis. Our attitude to drugs changed, but isn't that true with any medical condition that uses drugs e.g. blood thinners, SSRIs, insulin.
I swim everyday. Lately I can put in 60 minutes of doing laps, sometimes fast, sometimes slow. I am learning to breathe after being a cigarette smoker for decades. I am a year and change off the cigarettes. I am dabbling with breathing. I am definitely a lunatic with brain damage, but giving it a go and going to commit harder, be more hard core if it is possible? Not only is it possible but it means having a real life, where suffering is not the overbearing constant.
Having said all that.
I am open to drugs.
I am sadly guilty of praying for FX-322 to salvage my damage.
I know I have brain damage as well, I could feel a sharp pain into my brain.
Maybe electrical zaps could help the PTSD, and brain damage.
Perhaps a few shots of Charles Liberman's goop.
I cautiously, optimistically feel I can get a life worth living back.
I need to start making art again.
I need to do yoga.
I need to keep swimming.
I need to love everybody around me.
I need to breathe.
I need to use any thing at my disposal to fight this torture.
First line of defense should be hardcore holistic practices to transcend the psychophysical pain.
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