I joined this site some time ago but really was hesitant to post until I was ready to give people hope, today is the day.
On 10/17/15 I had a choking incident about 4 pm which required my husband to do the Heimlich maneuver or however you spell it.
Two hours later I was speaking to my mom on the phone on right ear and them moved it to my left ear and her voice was fading I moved phone to right ear and could Hear fine but moved to left ear and again could not hear well.
On Sunday 10/18 I woke up in the morning with the room spinning and complete hearing loss in left ear. I started to get a little worried, the hearing loss was one thing but the vertigo was more scary. I told my husband I was scared but noticed vertigo was more so when laying down. I drove myself to urgent care where the dr diagnosed me with sudden sensoneural hearing loss SSHL.
I had never heard of this, he immediately gave ne a steroid shot and a Medrol dose pack. He recommended I go to ER in the medical center, see Houston has the best medical care so surely I could get some answers.
After going to ER and getting CT scan I was told it was not due to stroke or tumor and was told told to followup with and ENT. I did just that and after MRI again was told it was SSHL, the dr explained to me that in some cases I had 50% chance of getting some hearing back but could take a year to know. Well I left the Drs office scared, hopeless and desperate. See with the SSHL came a loud hissing, high pitch tinnitus so loud that it over powered my ability to hear with my right ear had told me there was Nothing I could do for the T.
Well the days to follow became filled with the constant need to find out more, I was consumed with looking up treatment for T on the Internet. What I discovered is there was so much doom and gloom which filled me with anxiety, thoughts of feeling I was going to lose my mind and desperation.I could not focus on anything else but the ringing and it was on a scale of 1-10 a 10!!
I wouldn't leave my house . I could barely leave my room and I started to have panic attacks when daylight would come. I literally had a nervous breakdown . I have a huge support system in my husband, kids, family and friends but NO ONE could even come close to knowing what I was going through. Desperate times call for desperate faith I was in a pit and 3 weeks in found myself having a nervous breakdown, I prayed and prayed non stop I pleaded for some relief I put my sole focus on a scripture Isaiah 41:10.
I then made the decision to get on anxiety meds and depression meds. I promised myself to stay off the internet reading doom and gloom about T. Then on day my son told mom I found you a positive website and he loaded the TinnitusTalk site for me to read. I admit I was so afraid to get on the forum simply because I thought I was more of the same ol' stuff.
Well today I have to tell you that although I still have T but I am finally starting to habituate, all those times I heard the word habituate I never thought it could happen. I have regained some of my hearing in left ear but still have no high frequency hearing along with the Loud T. What has changed ? Well the tinnitus has not lessened but how I perceive the tinnitus and life has changed.
My motto has always been "live in the moment" I made the decision that not only would I stay off negative website, I refused to let T control me. I realize its a sound and although annoying as heck I love my family and life too much to stop living. As I sit here and type this I'm in my quiet bedroom and I can hear the T but I'M NOT FOCUSED ON IT.
What I want to say to all of you that have recently acquired T is Don't give up you have to have faith and hope you will get better. I have been in that dark pit feeling hopeless but take in one day at a time "live in the moment" don't think negative thoughts like "oh my gosh I have to live with this the rest of my life, or..... I go to bed every night and wake up every day thanking God for my heartbeat. Don't downplay what you are going through (example: it could be Cancer , or MS) although it is not Cancer it is still traumatic and you have to face it.
One thing I have learned is that this has made me stronger and I want to be the light for those that are new to this or going through what I went through.
One thing I notice about my T is for weeks it had been a relentless high frequency hissing, whistling sound but I notice lately sometimes it stops for a second or two and starts again.
I remain hopeful that one day it will go away completely but for now I'm gonna keep living and loving life.
I will never stop praying for a cure.. ️Hugs to all.
On 10/17/15 I had a choking incident about 4 pm which required my husband to do the Heimlich maneuver or however you spell it.
Two hours later I was speaking to my mom on the phone on right ear and them moved it to my left ear and her voice was fading I moved phone to right ear and could Hear fine but moved to left ear and again could not hear well.
On Sunday 10/18 I woke up in the morning with the room spinning and complete hearing loss in left ear. I started to get a little worried, the hearing loss was one thing but the vertigo was more scary. I told my husband I was scared but noticed vertigo was more so when laying down. I drove myself to urgent care where the dr diagnosed me with sudden sensoneural hearing loss SSHL.
I had never heard of this, he immediately gave ne a steroid shot and a Medrol dose pack. He recommended I go to ER in the medical center, see Houston has the best medical care so surely I could get some answers.
After going to ER and getting CT scan I was told it was not due to stroke or tumor and was told told to followup with and ENT. I did just that and after MRI again was told it was SSHL, the dr explained to me that in some cases I had 50% chance of getting some hearing back but could take a year to know. Well I left the Drs office scared, hopeless and desperate. See with the SSHL came a loud hissing, high pitch tinnitus so loud that it over powered my ability to hear with my right ear had told me there was Nothing I could do for the T.
Well the days to follow became filled with the constant need to find out more, I was consumed with looking up treatment for T on the Internet. What I discovered is there was so much doom and gloom which filled me with anxiety, thoughts of feeling I was going to lose my mind and desperation.I could not focus on anything else but the ringing and it was on a scale of 1-10 a 10!!
I wouldn't leave my house . I could barely leave my room and I started to have panic attacks when daylight would come. I literally had a nervous breakdown . I have a huge support system in my husband, kids, family and friends but NO ONE could even come close to knowing what I was going through. Desperate times call for desperate faith I was in a pit and 3 weeks in found myself having a nervous breakdown, I prayed and prayed non stop I pleaded for some relief I put my sole focus on a scripture Isaiah 41:10.
I then made the decision to get on anxiety meds and depression meds. I promised myself to stay off the internet reading doom and gloom about T. Then on day my son told mom I found you a positive website and he loaded the TinnitusTalk site for me to read. I admit I was so afraid to get on the forum simply because I thought I was more of the same ol' stuff.
Well today I have to tell you that although I still have T but I am finally starting to habituate, all those times I heard the word habituate I never thought it could happen. I have regained some of my hearing in left ear but still have no high frequency hearing along with the Loud T. What has changed ? Well the tinnitus has not lessened but how I perceive the tinnitus and life has changed.
My motto has always been "live in the moment" I made the decision that not only would I stay off negative website, I refused to let T control me. I realize its a sound and although annoying as heck I love my family and life too much to stop living. As I sit here and type this I'm in my quiet bedroom and I can hear the T but I'M NOT FOCUSED ON IT.
What I want to say to all of you that have recently acquired T is Don't give up you have to have faith and hope you will get better. I have been in that dark pit feeling hopeless but take in one day at a time "live in the moment" don't think negative thoughts like "oh my gosh I have to live with this the rest of my life, or..... I go to bed every night and wake up every day thanking God for my heartbeat. Don't downplay what you are going through (example: it could be Cancer , or MS) although it is not Cancer it is still traumatic and you have to face it.
One thing I have learned is that this has made me stronger and I want to be the light for those that are new to this or going through what I went through.
One thing I notice about my T is for weeks it had been a relentless high frequency hissing, whistling sound but I notice lately sometimes it stops for a second or two and starts again.
I remain hopeful that one day it will go away completely but for now I'm gonna keep living and loving life.
I will never stop praying for a cure.. ️Hugs to all.
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