I am barely hanging in there at the moment. But I am hanging in there, I have kids... I got to hold on for their sake. I try really hard to think positive every day. But it is hard. At times really hard. I pretty much habituated. I only had bad days and spikes. But I managed mostly to not listen to my tinnitus during the daytime.
But these past few days my tinnitus is insane. I try to think... hey relax it could be worse.
I have an ear infection (staph).
I got Cetraxal Comp (Ciprofloxacin) for my ears... tinnitus got increased. But I got told the infection will be really bad if I don't use antibiotics (and yes it is resistant but seems to go down with Quinolones).
And knowing I still have a few days left with eardrops for a staph infection in my ear, And every time I need to take the eardrops I feel I possibly might get even worse, or damage my ears more. Get louder tinnitus.....
These days I lost hope and I am scared... I feel like giving up. I can't do this anymore.
But then... I can't really give up... so I sit here trying to keep myself from totally freaking out. And I am tired and torn.
I just needed to voice that out somewhere.
But these past few days my tinnitus is insane. I try to think... hey relax it could be worse.
I have an ear infection (staph).
I got Cetraxal Comp (Ciprofloxacin) for my ears... tinnitus got increased. But I got told the infection will be really bad if I don't use antibiotics (and yes it is resistant but seems to go down with Quinolones).
And knowing I still have a few days left with eardrops for a staph infection in my ear, And every time I need to take the eardrops I feel I possibly might get even worse, or damage my ears more. Get louder tinnitus.....
These days I lost hope and I am scared... I feel like giving up. I can't do this anymore.
But then... I can't really give up... so I sit here trying to keep myself from totally freaking out. And I am tired and torn.
I just needed to voice that out somewhere.