Suffering but Feeling More Positive

[S.withnell]

hi everyone it's been a few weeks since I last wrote here.
I've still got the t and it's not got any better, nor worst which I guess is a good thing. Been to ENT and they think it's viral but it's been going on for a very long time , but been to,d it can be for 12 weeks or more. So I guess a month of this virus isn't anything close to say it's passing.
But I'm in a better frame of mind than before, I can cope with the t it drives me mad but I have yet to use any masking devices , and I manage to sleep with it ,I'm generally have learnt to just not fear it and carry on and just don't focus on the noise.
Even now it's 2 am in England I'm in bed and it's quiet and I can hear a high pitch ring and a brain hiss I like to call it , but I'm not fussed with it. Onky time it gets annoying is when it's pressure in the ears and certain times of the day it gets really loud over the tv or anything I'm doing like a head ache but with out the pain.
But I'm not taking any meds for any anxiety. Just a nasal spray and my asthma meds.

I'm back to see ENT in January for a second opinion , I'm going to bring up meinires deiesea ( can't spell it) as I've suffered with labyrithitus for a year now and my doctor thinks it could all be linked. But he didn't want to say for sure. But if it is MD it would at least answer my questions to what's going on and why. I do like to dream that it's just a virus and it will go away one day but I think deep down I know it won't . But I've coped with it for four weeks and counting I can cope with anything now. It doesn't stop me from doing what I did before . So why let it stop me now? ...

Life's a bit different yes but I will get through this and if any one saw my posts a few weeks back I was in a state where I couldn't think I could live any more. But I'm not scared any more of the t and I've helped myself all by myself so if I can do it so can every one else. It's learning to ignore it and yes it's easier said than done but it can be done. I woke up every single day tuned into hearing the t and every second of the day I was listening out all the time for the t and it was all I could hear because I let my mind forcus on nothing else, I was stuck into a circle where I just could not break away from it.
But I would try and carry on as normal as I could and in time it's work I have felt better in myself and I've looked at before the t and now with the t and I can still do what I enjoy. Even listing to music which before I feared as that is so what to blame for my t , but no life is ok , I'm having a. Good moment with the t and I'm sure I'll have bad days but I'm posative and one day maybe there will be a cure for t but I might actually hate the quiet and miss the t lol haha doubt it but who knows ?

 

[valeri]

I guess I could learn a lot from your post
Great news, amazing change from only few weeks ago, I hope you continue to improve!

 

[S.withnell]

I think it's all down to how you see things or this case hear things, and teaching yourself to tolerate it, at first i couldn't and I didn't know what to do , it was really bad well still is but my attitude towards it has changed and I think that's a huge step forward in learning to live with t. It's all state of mind and if your busy and keeping a normal life I think it helps a lot more.
I spent many sleepless nights at first listing out for t and I wouldn't do any thing else, but that was making it worst and nit better. So I manged to convince myself to get out and be back to normal as best I coukd and it was hard at first but now I feel a lot better and back to as close to normal I have felt in a long time.

 

[valeri]

How is your sleep now?

 

[S.withnell]

It's normalish to how it was before the t, only difference is when I wake up I hear it and then it can either phase out and come back with averagence which usually means time to get up. So it's a bit like a built in alarm clock now. Annoying but I can cope with it.
As for at night I hear it and some nights it's really loud but I just think of other things and I end up drifting off.
It's lewrning to ignore it and not let it bother you. That's when you can have a good nights sleep if you can tune out of it. Easier said than done but it can be done.

 

[valeri]

Thank you!