The Depression Is Overwhelming

[Jack Sparrow]

Just need to vent. *And DO NOT TELL ME TO "GO SEE A DOCTOR. YOU NEED TO SEE A DOCTOR.".

I HAVE. THEY DID NOT HELP ASIDE FROM ALL TOO EAGERLY WILLING TO PRESCRIBE PILLS. YOU SEE A DOCTOR FOR DEPRESSION AND/OR TINNITUS, THEY DO NOT CARE. SO DO NOT TELL ME THAT LIKE I SEE ON EVERY OTHER MEDICAL FORUM.*

I'm tired of this condition. I'm reaching my breaking point. I don't understand why nobody else understands this, this is such a simple concept. A noise in my ears that will not go away. And yet everybody looks at me like I'm crazy.

The depression has been too much in the past few years, and frankly, I am tired of it. Tired! It's not like I can sleep, or operate, like a conventional human being. I have lost all interest in my leisure hobbies. Friendships and relationships destroyed. I haven't been able to go on a date in some time now, and the loneliness is tiring. I have the noise to accompany me.

Losing my life passion, music, has not been easy and I feel like I have been going through a permanent withdrawal for several years now. My body is slowly withering away and I never leave the house. I don't see the end game anymore.

I did go on one date, and mentioned tinnitus. And mentioned all the things I couldn't do. Boy, you think that went anywhere?

I'm so tired of tinnitus. And there is no TANGIBLE help.

I'm sorry, I've just been sobbing uncontrollaby for the past few hours.

I can't believe, with everything I have gone through in life to grow up, that THIS is what my life was destined to become.

beeeeeeeeeeeeep

Captain Jack

 

[Tex]

I did go on one date, and mentioned tinnitus. And mentioned all the things I couldn't do. Boy, you think that went anywhere?

Your date probably never heard of Tinnitus. So effectively, on a first date, told her that you hear noises in your head when there are no noises. She probably just thinks you are nuts and she should distance herself.

 

[Agrajag364]

Just need to vent. *And DO NOT TELL ME TO "GO SEE A DOCTOR. YOU NEED TO SEE A DOCTOR.".

I HAVE. THEY DID NOT HELP ASIDE FROM ALL TOO EAGERLY WILLING TO PRESCRIBE PILLS. YOU SEE A DOCTOR FOR DEPRESSION AND/OR TINNITUS, THEY DO NOT CARE. SO DO NOT TELL ME THAT LIKE I SEE ON EVERY OTHER MEDICAL FORUM.*

I'm tired of this condition. I'm reaching my breaking point. I don't understand why nobody else understands this, this is such a simple concept. A noise in my ears that will not go away. And yet everybody looks at me like I'm crazy.

The depression has been too much in the past few years, and frankly, I am tired of it. Tired! It's not like I can sleep, or operate, like a conventional human being. I have lost all interest in my leisure hobbies. Friendships and relationships destroyed. I haven't been able to go on a date in some time now, and the loneliness is tiring. I have the noise to accompany me.

Losing my life passion, music, has not been easy and I feel like I have been going through a permanent withdrawal for several years now. My body is slowly withering away and I never leave the house. I don't see the end game anymore.

I did go on one date, and mentioned tinnitus. And mentioned all the things I couldn't do. Boy, you think that went anywhere?

I'm so tired of tinnitus. And there is no TANGIBLE help.

I'm sorry, I've just been sobbing uncontrollaby for the past few hours.

I can't believe, with everything I have gone through in life to grow up, that THIS is what my life was destined to become.

beeeeeeeeeeeeep

Captain Jack

Sorry to hear all that. How long have you had tinnitus for? Is it really just a month as it says on your profile?

 

[Jack Sparrow]

Sorry to hear all that. How long have you had tinnitus for? Is it really just a month as it says on your profile?

I made my profile a long time ago and haven't logged on here in some time. I took all forum advice to avoid forums as they were super negative, and it would supposedly help habituate.

It hasn't helped.

Captain Jack

 

[Blue28]

@Jack Sparrow I'm so sorry to read how down this terrible affliction is making you feel, and I can totally relate 100%. I've had tinnitus for just over 3 years and my life as I knew it stopped the day after a loud microsuction procedure, when I developed tinnitus and then hyperacusis.

As you said, doctors are only too keen to prescribe benzos etc, they have no idea of the suffering this causes, and either don't care or don't know how to deal with this.

I really can't understand how little importance/exposure is given to hearing problems, and how it's taking so long to find a solution/cure. TRT is not a satisfactory solution imo, unless your tinnitus is minimal and manageable, but until a cure is found this is the only thing available. Not acceptable. I hear about the possible cures for inner ear damage, but it all seems so far away.

I'm so sorry.

 

[Ismael]

sorry for my English

I would like to tell you you will never be alone, there are many of us who walk the same path.

I have a bilateral tinnitus, I protect myself so that it does not get worse, that's important, the people around me can not understand this condition, It is true, I have returned to make the same life that I had before, that is the questión.

When I started I left almost everything, sports, social life and I almost lost my job. And it was a process, then I went back to everything I did in my life, and I have to say that my tinnitus is invasive and annoying, since it is difficult to have lived 39 years in silence, about 8000hz it sounds, my new friend does not leave me for a year and a half.

The mind is powerful and filters what is not important, which is the frequency that many hear every day, leave home, recover your normality, you will see that it is a paper monster, but you must take steps forward, you have many things left for winning, you have not lost anything, I have also been destined not to hear silence like many here, my noise is part of me.

There will be no breaking point because it sounds something deep in our ears, make an effort, friend, You know you're not alone we are very adaptable, that sound, at least case, weaker, when more focused, more present. new doors will open, life goes on, and new things you will discover,

And also, if it is recent, you will surely improve.

But make a move forward, an optimistic movement, it is my humble advice, persevere always, it will never be the end of our world, keep walking, and think of your dreams, tinnitus can not take away your destiny, and it can disappear.

With all humility I direct these words to you, a hug.

 

[Strife_84]

I know how you feel. I am fighting against myself right now.

I have cyclothymia, which is mild version of bipolar. And I must say that having T is not helping.

I guess I would've tolerated this better but I lost my hobby because of this condition. And that hobby was music. I had everything planned, I have been able to release music and now I don't know when I can make music again. My ears cannot handle those frequencies. I listened music for 10 minutes few days ago. 10 minutes! And I had my ears ringing loudly for 2 days.

I suggest you find a good therapist, I myself went to psychotherapy for few years because of my mental issues (that was before T) thanks to that I can somewhat battle against this.

But this is hard!

Hang in there....

 

[Daniel Lion]

sorry for my English

I would like to tell you you will never be alone, there are many of us who walk the same path.

I have a bilateral tinnitus, I protect myself so that it does not get worse, that's important, the people around me can not understand this condition, It is true, I have returned to make the same life that I had before, that is the questión.

When I started I left almost everything, sports, social life and I almost lost my job. And it was a process, then I went back to everything I did in my life, and I have to say that my tinnitus is invasive and annoying, since it is difficult to have lived 39 years in silence, about 8000hz it sounds, my new friend does not leave me for a year and a half.

The mind is powerful and filters what is not important, which is the frequency that many hear every day, leave home, recover your normality, you will see that it is a paper monster, but you must take steps forward, you have many things left for winning, you have not lost anything, I have also been destined not to hear silence like many here, my noise is part of me.

There will be no breaking point because it sounds something deep in our ears, make an effort, friend, You know you're not alone we are very adaptable, that sound, at least case, weaker, when more focused, more present. new doors will open, life goes on, and new things you will discover,

And also, if it is recent, you will surely improve.

But make a move forward, an optimistic movement, it is my humble advice, persevere always, it will never be the end of our world, keep walking, and think of your dreams, tinnitus can not take away your destiny, and it can disappear.

With all humility I direct these words to you, a hug.

Dear Ismael,

Your words really moved me and helped me.

Those are beautiful things you said... you spoke from a place of hope and love.
We need hope and love.

Thank you Ismael.

Daniel

 

[CMIH]

I did go on one date, and mentioned tinnitus. And mentioned all the things I couldn't do. Boy, you think that went anywhere?

Mentioning all the things you can't do sounds really negative and depressing. I'd avoid that with someone you've just met. I'd suggest focusing on what you can do instead of what you can't do. Easier said than done, I know.

 

[Bill Bauer]

And there is no TANGIBLE help.

There might be some treatments released this year...

How long have you had T for?