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Hey, just to say I would quit your job. Your health is more important. I made myself worse pushing myself to go to work. You can always get another one
ErikaS
@MindOverMatter Once again, I agree :) .. Even though I am not happy in my current role and need something that is less stressful and more conducive to not only my current state with my condition, but allow me to more likely reach my dreams and goals in the next 5 years, working is one of very few things that gives me purpose and a sense of normalcy..
ErikaS
@MindOverMatter I do not do well not working at all, as it is said "an idle mind is the devil's workshop".. well my biggest "devil" is my T and an idle mind gives it too much power! So like you said, all about balance.
Zigs
Where to start with my symptoms! They change daily and the most debilitating come and go. Last week it was severe pain, this week it's this morse code banging
Idk if it has improved I feel I lost like at least 20% of my hearing ability. And I can only blame myself for this one. :/
Was filling papers for green card replacement and it says the cost is 700 dollars.What the hell. Looks like I'm permanently illegal now lmao
I lost my green card and I don't have any other documents at all. Thank god that one pharmacy chain in Texas that doesn't ask for ID lol
Flying sucks. I have some kind of eutachian tube issues and my right ear stays clogged for a day after. No help from earplugs (for flying)
I went to my second concert after my tinnitus started. And I loved it. I stayed far away from speakers and used ear protection.
By the way, I have had tinnitus since 1991, you are light years away from knowing what I know. You have to make an effort to be more humble and respectful.
And learn to read.
2/2 I've never had spikes, mine have always been permanent increases. How do you know if it's a spike? How long do yours last?
orenge01
I don't know for others but for me a spike is like 3 days to a week. But they can last longer than that I'm sure. Or at least based on what I've read.
1/2 I think I'm having a tinnitus spike? A tone I haven't heard for a long time is back and pretty obnoxious. Sounds like a tornado siren.
That's what I get for being stupid I guess. I never seem to learn. Wishing for better days right now...
Dont make my mistake. I hope I didnt absolutely wreck my hearing like the first time again. This is not fun. Sounds are all muffled again :/
Battling COVID much more concerned about my sense of smell and taste returning than any possible increases in tinnitus
My T is as loud as ever, but the main obstacle to habituation was the reactivity, and that's gone now.
As if the spike wasn't challenging enough, here comes the first sickness from going back to work in a school ;( Sending T even more haywire.
Based on my memory of that, I can relate to them, but they can no longer relate to me, now that T and H have fundamentally changed my life.
At this point, I feel like I have nothing in common with healthy people, other than a memory of what it was like to be healthy.
I'm tempted to be honest and say, "I have done nothing in the past 24 months except try to get well." But that would make them sad.
MindOverMatter
I think you should put away some of your thoughts @ECP , because it totally downplays yourself. You are not a burden. Good friends dont see obstacles as a burden.What about you choosing the venue? Seeing only the issues with things, and thinking the worst, is adding fuel to an already difficult situation. You are not your thoughts. And remember, its better to leave early than avoid it all.
MindOverMatter
I do not know your potentially other struggles, issues and PTSD. But you don't have to be defined by t and h, even though it is life challenging. I think you should share your story with your friend. It might be good for you. I speak openly to anyone about my journey with this, and it makes it easier for sure. But Im not defined by it.
ECP
Thank you @MindOverMatter. I will try to reframe things in my mind after a good night's sleep. I'm just especially depressed right now because it's the 24-month mark and some bad stuff happened last week that I wrote about in the suicide thread. :( Anyway, I appreciate your kindness very much.
nothing to say. Like, they have no freaking idea how T and H will impact every aspect of your existence: hobbies, jobs, social life.
I tell them about my incurable ear problems, and then when they say, "What else is going on?", I feel even worse because I have
Does anyone else find it triggering to catch up with old friends who have yet to hear about your T or H? I feel like a Debbie Downer when
Playing Metal Gear Rising with sound on, now. 2022 me could *never*.
TheCapybara
That's great to hear man, it took me a while to really comfortably play video games again too with distortions, but eventually we recover to a point where we can handle it again.
Cory_
Let alone a slice-and-dice with a blaring heavy metal soundtrack.
Pff.. neighboors annoying sounds at night... doesn't help for a relaxing night's rest. I wish i could live somewhere more quiet
Sure, why would I be part of the lucky majority? I often forget that I came to this world just to suffer.