and.. just a reminder for myself. I habituated to all of that shit, even to the hum. I don't know, why my brain is so good in that, but he really got this. 2025 was a really fucked up year for me with a lot of other mental problems. I have gastritis for 3 months now, which is based on helicobacter pylori and the thing that i have little nutrition it the cause of my spike, i guess. I really, really struggle with it because i was not in a good place before. But what can we do? I try not to think about it, but it is basically unbearable. It is comforting that the sounds were like that 2024, because i forgot. I don't know, when i was getting better or what have i done for it. I think just one day it dropped in volume. And i was fine again. For almost a year. No spikes this summer. But now..