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Utdmad89

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It actually sounds like a mental illness. May 17, 2024 at 1:26 AM

    1. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      It actually sounds like a mental illness.
      May 17, 2024 at 1:26 AM
    2. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Imagine being in your 50s and coming on to a forum to bring people down, to try and ruin people's hope
      May 17, 2024 at 1:05 AM
    3. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Don't get it
      May 16, 2024 at 3:01 PM
    4. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      I look at my 2yo and think I want to be here for you, but I want to end it for me. I dunno why I even bother on here. There is nout and most
      May 16, 2024 at 3:01 PM
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      2. Note
        Note
        My daughter turns 2yo in a few months. Stay strong!
        May 16, 2024 at 8:54 PM
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    5. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Even though they have it far less aggressive and can still live, what am I going todo
      May 16, 2024 at 3:00 PM
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      3. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        @RunningMan For your information I do have severe tinnitus, but my other problems are worse. Count yourself lucky you don't have Noxacusis or VSS you have no idea what this shit can do.
        May 16, 2024 at 8:44 PM
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      4. RunningMan
        RunningMan
        Ok, well hopefully your conditions stay more mild and don't get as bad as my severe tinnitus and various other conditions. Then you won't be able to sleep, either. Remember, as bad as it may seem now, it can get worse. So keep a positive mindset and seek therapy if needed.
        May 16, 2024 at 11:25 PM
      5. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        What makes you think you have it more severe? You should remember that it could get worse for you , you could get pain from sound and have to be in silence majority of the day, you could also develop VSS and start basically not being able to see. Hopefully, your symptoms will stay milder as I really think with your anxiety you wouldn't be able to cope.
        May 17, 2024 at 12:22 AM
    6. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      It's just constant suffering for 18 months, you come on here for hope but have the same few who want to drag you down.
      May 16, 2024 at 3:00 PM
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    7. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      I'm a shadow, with nothing coming I'm sure it's close, I'm not like others who jump from one feeling to the next as they have rest bites
      May 16, 2024 at 2:59 PM
    8. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      My quality of life is hitting rock bottom. Then you got an absolute arsehole arguing with you for no reason other than his fragile ego
      May 16, 2024 at 2:58 PM
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      3. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        Where did we argue? Lol
        May 16, 2024 at 4:51 PM
      4. kingsfan
        kingsfan
        I know that I wrote in some agreement with the person you have been arguing with. I try to be neutral and not argumentative, but I just wanted to, you know, apologize if I came off that way. I only have my own internal perception of myself that may or may not align with how the outside world views me.
        May 16, 2024 at 5:46 PM
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      5. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        The person I'm arguing with likes to bring people down. But it's your choice who you agree with. No worries.
        May 16, 2024 at 8:56 PM
    9. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      What thr fuck am I actually going to do. I want to end my life, but I look at my son and it breaks my heart. The suffering is endless
      May 15, 2024 at 10:06 PM
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    10. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      It sucks reading others who get better, as they have tinnitus and not hyperacusis or noxacusis or VSS, I don't see myself getting better.
      May 15, 2024 at 8:00 PM
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      3. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        I'm not saying it isn't, but H and N are way worse. Literally can't do anything. And then VSS on top so I feel like I'm losing my mind.
        May 15, 2024 at 9:41 PM
      4. Higo
        Higo
        I've read a few success stories about hyperacusis, I'm sure you'll get there too.
        May 15, 2024 at 9:54 PM
      5. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        I dunno mate. I keep getting new symptoms. I just can't catch a break
        May 15, 2024 at 10:37 PM
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    11. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      So many of the same people chatting shit.. driving me crazy
      May 13, 2024 at 11:59 PM
    12. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Honestly can't see me surviving much longer. This eye shit is horrible on top of the hyperacusis with tinnitus aswell, what isnthr point
      May 12, 2024 at 11:35 PM
    13. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Health is wealth ...and I'm broke
      May 12, 2024 at 11:34 PM
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    14. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      I'm now getting dizzy spells. This is awful, wtf is going on
      May 5, 2024
      2. Pinhead
        Pinhead
        Have you been checked for Meniere's?
        May 7, 2024
      3. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        I haven't no
        May 16, 2024 at 1:22 AM
    15. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      God what I'd do to just have my old T back and mild VS
      May 3, 2024
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      3. kyscrivens
        kyscrivens
        Oh okay, I just saw you say you want your old T back. What did you get yours from?
        May 5, 2024
      4. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        I meant I want my old T back as in that was all that I was suffering with then, I'm not 100% sure tbh.
        May 5, 2024
      5. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        Could be noise trauma, or loads if different meds I've been on. Or a steriod spray the docs gave me for a blocked middle ear. Or all of the above lol
        May 5, 2024
    16. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Just shouting into the void.
      May 3, 2024
    17. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Why is there nothing that can be done. Just watching your life slip through your fingers is agony.
      May 3, 2024
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      2. kingsfan
        kingsfan
        Yep. I've lost pretty much everything. I'm still trying to get back on my feet but it seems insurmountable.
        May 3, 2024
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    18. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      At this point I don't see the point in carrying on. When you can't live a normal life.
      May 2, 2024
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    19. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Not decades away when life will be basically over anyway, after years of agrophbia, OCD, then all this shit. When my kid is grow up.3
      May 2, 2024
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      3. RunningMan
        RunningMan
        That wasn't meant to be "funny", hence the sad face about the worsening that you mentioned is constant. Your new comment above said you wished you had your old T back, so I assumed that meant it was worse now. I know the feeling. Sorry for trying to be supportive. Keep up the optimism that things will get better. The Shore device is coming eventually... we hope.
        May 5, 2024
      4. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        I never saw this post, it wasn't on here when I replied. I was talking about you posting the funny emoji on my posts to you on a different thread, then saw you liked my constant worsening post thinking you was trying to say something.
        May 5, 2024
      5. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        What I meant in the above post was when I only had T, not the Hyperacusis, Noxacusis and now VSS. T for me isn't my biggest problem anymore and I wish I was back to that state compared to now
        May 5, 2024
    20. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      How does that effect my vision? God I wish someone actually gave a shit. Someone who is working fast to get treatment out 2
      May 2, 2024
      2. BB23
        BB23
        I think out brains were predisposed for this shit.
        May 3, 2024
    21. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Surly it can't be noise induced, if I've got VSS and that is worsening. How do I have T/H/N and VSS, from listening on headphones loudly 1
      May 2, 2024
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    22. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Someone kill me please
      May 1, 2024
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      2. BB23
        BB23
        God will grant this wish of yours someday. Hang in there...
        May 1, 2024
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    23. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      I'm so sick of being in pain. I want to die. Why isn't assisted suicide available in this country
      May 1, 2024
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    24. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      And look after yourself, Go outside and do leisure activities, I'm very jealous. Fuck this world. Fuck my life. Need an easy way out
      Apr 30, 2024
    25. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      How the fuck has it come to this. Shouting into he mist. What's the point. If you can go out, have audio without pain, work,
      Apr 30, 2024
    26. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Not that anyone gives a shit. Funny how everyone disappear. Life has been one long joke, how much is one person ment to deal with
      Apr 30, 2024
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    27. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Just have to sit in silence. Soon won't be able to watch tele or game. It feels I'm literally being pushed into killing myself.
      Apr 30, 2024
    28. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Going untreated for years, or Diabetes, sod knows how long I've actually had that. Guess my health is truly fucked
      Apr 30, 2024
    29. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      How is this all noise trauma?! It can't be surley If I'm getting visaul problems. Guess it was the drugs, and meds, or the sleep apnea
      Apr 30, 2024
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    30. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      And I have started getting worse Visual symptoms, like watching tele or gaming it seems laggy or stutters, scaring the crap out of me
      Apr 30, 2024
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