Recent content by Kenilworth

Suicide does not even need to be justified. We all have different limits to what we can cope with and it is something that medical professionals and many others do not understand. Society always tells us that we can overcome anything and conquer all obstacles. But it is not always the case. We...

Not all obstacles can be overcome. Not all ailments can be cured. Not all traumas can be healed. Sometimes, death is the most merciful option.

"The one thing I can't understand, I can't grasp my head around, is I feel when you die, there's just nothing; it's like when you're asleep and you're dreaming. But, I can't imagine nothingness lasting forever. That is the thing that I cannot get." - Stan Lee

"Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live." — Norman Cousins

Still the same. Worse.

This morning, I woke up with a very loud tinnitus/spike. I have not been doing anything different. I protect my ears when I'm out. I have also been taking 5 mg Amitriptyline and 3 mg Ambien every night for sleep for the past 3 month. Could those meds be causing damage to my ears?

RIP Brian. I have spoken with Brian once. We shared our struggle. I was/still am suicidal just as much as he was. I have thought about him in recent months following his last posts and something in me thought it would come down to this. Our conversations were brief and not really productive. I...

My tinnitus was mild and stable for 5 years, then got worse from taking meds. My tinnitus gets worse every day from low/normal sounds. I try my best to avoid loud sounds but honestly I can't avoid all sounds, like alarms, sudden traumas and all sorts. It literally gets worse from car...

I have been told by more than one person that my suffering has a deeper meaning, purpose and that something good is simply waiting to emerge from it. As much as they mean well, at times it seems like there's no meaning to any of my suffering or that there is no reward to be found from my...

I will look in to this. Thank you.

Yes, fortunately. My mother is my greatest supporter, but she doesn't understand what I'm going through. She feels so helpless sometimes. I sure am grateful to have her.