Recent content by Kiyomi

But yea, with hearing pro inside my ears, the crackling is much quieter. It also depends on my posture and other things. I think those tubes equalize pressure?

Isn't the crackling when swallowing hearing the eustachian tubes? I read that this is normal. I never heard the crackling before onset but I think this could be H related? Maybe some filter that filtered the sound got destroyed when my ears got damaged.

Again I'm writing those depressive walls of text. Last week I was doing so great but now I feel so bad again. I just want a second chance, please I want my old life back god.

It's time to forget about treatments and cures. Once the ears are fried in this way, they are done. Habituation is the way forward sadly. Watching stuff or playing games is the only thing that let's me forget about all this and I am grateful that I'm able to handle those. The moment I step out...

It has been a great 22 years and I'm thankful for all the memories but I'm done. I'm not suffering 24/7 but I'm not strong enough to just push through and still try to achieve something. I'm weak and my ears will put me down forever.

Reading, gaming on low volume, going out hiking in quiet places. That's about it. No more stress, no more trying to achieve something. Probably going to quit work too. Friends gone.

There is no need to try anymore. Uni is gone and with my ears being like this there won't be anything that requires concentration in quiet anymore. There were many jobs I had interest in but now I will work at some supermarket or go on social welfare. Society doesn't care about me, it's loud, 0%...

Finding a partner, having children, travelling the world, living and studying abroad, producing music etc. I have 0% ambition now but accepting that my ears are done gets me through this eventually.

Anyone knows some good earmuffs? Something that doesn't look too much like peltors. 10db reduction is enough.

High pitched sounds like brakes or kids screaming aren't that bad tho.

Digital audio isn't a problem anymore. I can even listen to music on moderate volume. But everyday sounds like paper, metal on metal, dishes and so on make my ears feel exhausted.