Recent content by Marina Moon

Chronic pain stripped away any little freedoms i had left....but at least i can drive.

something is wrong with me. this isn't a simple textbook case of tmd, and i hate myself for self-diagnosing myself because now it has turned into a weapon used against me. My parents treat me like a normal case, like i have normal pains. 'if i grind my teeth i'll end up like you,' my dad told...

i hate my body. Why is my body my enemy? Why is it hurting me so? I want to be free from this existence.

in a hypothetical situation, say i fell down the stairs and couldn't get up, My sister would look down from the top and never lend a hand. There would be me, pleading for help, while she'd look down in disgust and codemn me for yelling. Just today, she wouldn't even open the door for me because...

But i got my hopes up and i'm no better or worse. No doctors or PTs want to bothered to investigate a confusing case like mine. They should do their damn job. i hate medicine, i hate how cowardly these 'professionals' are all acting. Cowardly, mean, dismissive. Only someone who has a problem...

I told him about all the other pain of my body, how so much of it is left sided and between my shoudler blades. He really...dismissed it like the other PTs who dismiss my facial pain. From both of their perspectives, neither pain is related to the other. It was a depressing session. I seriously...

then he stop tongue depressors, stacked on top of eachother, and then put them in my mouth to stretch/open up my mouth. He says that's something i should do 5 times a day(?) and idk i don't want to do that....

My face still felt the same after the massage, and it was....like what I do on my own. He tried opening my mouth with his thumb, pressing down on my lower teeth, and truthfully in that moment it was the stuff of nightmares, but it didn't bugde (i really didn't want it to and I was kind of...

he tried to massage my facial muscles, he said he couldn't feel my discs. But i'm also positive that he didn't look at my MRIs, but i did think he asked if i got imaging done, so he really didn't look at my images. He also tried to massage my trapezius muscle. But he said he wasn't going to give...

i asked him about the relationship between the hips and the jaw and he laughed in my face. That basically there was no connection between the two, and that I was overthinking the problem way too much. And then he called my nutty.

@Juliane it really sucks :( *hugs*

@Juliane Yes, and urgently. The healthcare system needs a makeover.