I’m literally sobbing right now. I can’t handle this. I need to end this soon. My life has been so unfair from day 1. I can’t understand how this is real. It must be a nightmare. The panic attacks are nonstop and indescribably intense.
My tinnitus was much lower in the beginning, but got much louder over time with exposure to loud noises. Some people have very mild tinnitus and it never gets worse for them from any setting. I’ve always wondered why.
I was bullied in high school too. It damaged my brain and gave me debilitating anxiety. And then getting tinnitus and more after that, I feel so unlucky. I can’t live like this.
I’m Turkish too. I never could’ve imagined this as a child. I wish I would’ve died as a child. I’m only 23 and my life is ruined. I’m in constant panic. I think the same thing.
It’s my favorite season, spring, and I can’t do anything I want to do that’s relaxing to me because of chronic pain. I feel trapped in my body. These debilitations being so young still. I think “no way this is real” every second.