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  1. pytajnick

    The Term Reactive Tinnitus

    @Michael Leigh I'd like to ask you one last question regarding this the topic. As you said the first time you had T it was accompanied by severe hyperacuis. Did you experienced prolonged (lasting until sleep) increase of your Tinnitus volume as an effect of moderate noise exposure or was it just...
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    The Term Reactive Tinnitus

    I agree. I experience both things - H and Reactive Tinnitus (in form of "winding-up" effect) In my case worsening of T lasts more than several hours (sometimes several days and sometimes it becomes my new baseline) which puts me in the infamous "Category IV" bracket (you can read about Tinnitus...
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    Suicide

    And you're doing so since 1994 or did you got some major setback in recent years?
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    Suicide

    Yes I am aware of the relation. Long before I developed Tinnitus I was considering myself as having poor hearing. Especially in loud environments. I just wasn't aware of the implications. So good audiograms were quite a surprise for me. I was always upset by ENT's enthusiasm. You see, you have...
  5. pytajnick

    Suicide

    Thank you for your addition to this thread. There's one thing I am not sure how to interpret. I am somewhat familiar with general conclusions of Kujawa studies as well as Liberman (limited by my language limitations and specific language of the literature). It seems that hearing loss can...
  6. pytajnick

    Suicide

    I really want to thank you just like others in this thread for trying. I know I am a hell of an ungrateful advice taker with this "denying anything" attitude of mine. There's one more thing that bothers me and which I can associate with the process of gradual worsening of my condition especially...
  7. pytajnick

    Suicide

    @GregCA I guess I will have to ask a neurologist or ENT when I visit one about this whole mri thing. As for perception vs actual volume - You can actually distinguish these two things when you have the second source of sound playing role of minimal level of suppression. At the beginning when my...
  8. pytajnick

    Suicide

    yep. Started with 1mg only during bad days but eventually ended with 3mg every day. I am taking them every other day now but I guess they don't work for me anymore. I won't try my luck with higher doses. The thing that worked for me best was sound enrichment but now with my reactivity it's out...
  9. pytajnick

    Suicide

    I don't have CBT therapist. I've seen a therapist some month ago and it was nice, friendly talk but it didn't do much good. I've read some CBT literature and identified when I was making the mistake of making generalizations or assumptions. It was at the initial stages. As I mentioned in the...
  10. pytajnick

    Suicide

    Mountain biking, computer games, playing guitar, midi controllers and music production stuff, gym, movies (art-house and so-called classics mostly), concerts and music festivals. I used to LOVE to listen to music with headphones (chemical love it proved to be). At the beginning, I thought that...
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    Suicide

    Ok guys, let's finish this thread with some proactive approach. I plan to visit a shrink to get an AD. Any thoughts on remeron? I made some research on the forum and on the web and it seems relatively safe. I am more concerned about my sleep than overall mood during the day. It's getting harder...
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    Suicide

    I guess you're getting to me with this post. I often think the same to myself but It's just so hard to adjust to the condition that is so dynamic. I don't know really know what state I'll need to accept eventually. The level that I have now? I am not naive. It will get worse. And that is the...
  13. pytajnick

    Suicide

    I am familiar with breathing exercises. I guess they work to some extend. I am doing them when I need them the most - Before the sleep. It helped yesterday for example. But maybe I was just exhausted from lack of sleep previous days. Today it was no success. But thank you!
  14. pytajnick

    Suicide

    I don't thrive for the recovery. I would settle for having the comfort of my T staying at the stable level to which I can habituate. Then I would be able to see what adjustments I am forced to make to my life. For now, all the adjustments I've made (and i've made plenty of sacrifices) seem not...
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    Suicide

    Can I ask kind of a technical question? How did you address sleeping issues? When T was so loud that you were unable to sleep what were you doing?