Recent content by Zenyatta

yeah okay i get it, someone else has it worse and i should get over it. i know that, i know all that. fuck this, i'll just off myself

I have no issue with honesty, all I'm saying is that the whole "someone else has it worse" thing doesn't make me feel better, lol. This is the problem - I don't want to live like this. This kind of existence isn't living, it's just waiting for the day to end. What's the point? (And I don't...

You're right, I immediately feel better about my life now and all the terrible thoughts are gone!

There's a door in our otherwise quiet-ish office that people keep slamming. Fortunately I'm not that close to it, but one of these days it feels like I'm going to flip...

@Michael Leigh I'm afraid there's not much else I can do - I've started using the WNGs, read every article available multiple times and I'm only getting more bitter, not less. I used to be able to talk to my friends, now I just want to tell them to kill themselves. The escitalopram I was given...

@Bobbie7 I couldn't disagree more about the whole "what doesn't kill us makes us stronger" approach. I have battled mental illness for most of my teenage and young adult years. I do not feel one bit stronger for it. I've gone through things that most people in my age group couldn't even imagine...

...which I would gladly do, if there was a person like that in my country. It's not even the tinnitus that really gets me at this point, it's the hyperacusis *sigh*

That would actually make things much easier, as I would immediately know that my life was over and I would kill myself as soon as I got the chance. This was, I'm still having trouble gathering the courage necessary for it. Then again, I have an eye disease so I might end up legally blind either...

Because I sure do. I have reactive tinnitus and hyperacusis and I've become extremely limited in what I can do. Unfortunately, this has caused me to hate the people who are close to me - I don't see my friends anymore, nor do I really talk to them online because I just cannot get over the...

Probably a form of reactive tinnitus. I have a lot of tones, but some of them only pick up if I hear certain kinds of broadband noise.

Just invest in a real dB meter - they're quite affordable and you won't have to deal with worrying about all this.

No offense, but 1: it clearly is an option, Chester has just provided an example and 2: you're actively choosing to participate in these threads and telling everyone it's stupid... what are you hoping to achieve? I've started looking up lawyers and making sure my will is legally perfect, and...

I have the exact same thing! I wonder why it happens.

Oh yeah, it does that. Mine feels like I have a sunburn inside my ears. @Lex I'm sorry you have to deal with this. Wish I could say something to make you feel better but the best we can do is a hug emote. Hang in there, for now.

I'm sorry you have to deal with that. I'm sure there's some other medication you can get that doesn't spike your T. Hang in there!