Tinnitus Talk Support Forum

Quite honestly.. i've been through such crazy stresses in life, i'm amazed i actually survived it this far. Maybe for you too, you still survived, you still got a chance of healing.

I also feel like, of course we wish healing rather today than tomorrow, but they say that life is like a marathon, i gotta feel like yes, every day trying to follow what feels right, but also seeing things aren't peaches and cream in an instant, it has been a long way. Try to also be proud of how far you've come (saying to myself too).

I feel what you're saying brother, the wish of having a break from the stress, t and suffering. With my negative thoughts, it happens some times, and then i feel bad about it.. and then it becomes kind of a loop. So i guess, i try to not be too hard on myself about it..

That it's just a symptom of the distress.. trying to not hold on to negative thinking (easier said than done sometimes), but i try to get out of such loop, either just mindfulness practises, not taking every thought that serious, distractions, taking a breath, trying to reshift focus. Trying to find a good flow somehow again.. and again..

And trying to find some rest.. i repeated a lot.. but anything that promotes a sense of natural wellbeing feels like a good direction. We gotta have patience with ourselves too i guess.. take a deep breath.

Btw, i'm taking a little break from this forum for about a week, i'm going on holiday with my dear mom. I hope we'll get some good weather too

As i said before, i appreciate all your sharings, not just positive ones. This whole life journey isn't just positivity, sadly enough (even when just taking a look around in the world.. it's far from just positive).. i appreciate your authenticity. You are very strong and have a very kind heart. Going day by day.. love brother

@L along the way - that's awesome. Hope you have a great time on your vacation. I am happy you are taking a break but cannot lie - I will miss you! Love you

@4Grace thank you friend. Can i just say/vent a few things? I've drank booze yesterday to fall asleep, now waking up with a hangover. This lifestyle is not good in the end.. i hope some day i can sleep cleanly and well again.

You've mentioned a few times that you felt you have t the worst (i do 100% believe it's a genuine expression of you), and of course, in no way this is a competition, but i actually had similar thoughts.

That nobody got it as bad as me, feels as if my auditory nerves are fried and burning, like where to turn to.. Similar to your quote.. i would not believe it if it weren't happening to me. Difficult to sleep without a something to numb. What do i do, let go somehow etc such thoughts.

They say to find 'the calm in the eye of the storm' like you've also mentioned a few times.. that's inspiring, whilst also feels like a whole proces of finding place of inner calmth.
I'm a bit anxious even about the holiday, because if i can't sleep well.. i feel grumpy during the day.. and i'm also not the most pleasant company for others.

Well.. but i guess again i'll just be going day by day, try not to worry to much about the future. A holiday with my dear mom is special, i try to just enjoy my time with her and enjoy the beautiful nature places we're going to visit.
Wishing you a good week too, (and saying to myself too) breathe, trying to take it easy. Take care my friend

-l along the way thank you. You are stronger than you know. As grim as I sound I don't share everything on here. I'm not good company either. This is all I have. I cannot be well inside my house. I cannot do anything. It hurts my ears. Thank you so much for sharing. You inspire me to try and live.

The only way I known is to go out and live. What ever happens happens but what is happening is that it's getting worse. I know you have it hard too. I have become a big pain to my mom and dad and family. It's like I'm in a fire burning flames are getting stronger and everyone is saying talk about something else.

You inspire me to be better. To keep trying even though the tank is empty.

@4Grace thank you.. it's sad.. all these things.. i've talked about hope & healing, and i do believe in these things, but also some days i've been feelings worse instead of improvement.. pff.. fire burning flames i feel that one.. man.. and then all those q's like.. why is life so unfair etc..

I know it has to do with my nervous system.. i notice people i come accross sometimes kindly say to me 'take it easy', i find it kind, but they notice i'm a little bit shaky so to say..

The basic need of sleep.. i've had so much issues with that.. painful t.. and then i just took some drinks, and it did help me.. but in the end that's not a healthy lifestyle..

What can we do than going day by day i guess? You inspire me too.. sorry to read your struggles but thank you for sharing and wishing things will improve with time